I feel like this a late and redundant topic. However, at the same time, I feel as if this isn't something a lot of people like to talk about and that this is probably a moot point considering I am halfway through my college career. It's getting to that time of year where everyone is counting down the days until they graduate and many people are headed off to college right now.
If you want someone who can give you a testimony on God's timing, then I'm your girl. I think not getting into the school of my dreams was the best thing that could have happened to me. 2016 was a year of significant losses for me. If I were the stock market, then that would've been my 1929 nose-dive.
But on the optimistic end of the spectrum, 2017 was a year of significant gains. And if you're wondering about 2018, it's been about balance, and it's been having me on edge. But we're fine. We're elegant.
I didn't anticipate bouncing back from my lowest blows, actually. I think that rejection was something that was a blow to my ego and my passions. And for me, that was actually devastating. It's dramatic but I almost thought I was mourning a death because I had so intricately planned my life around the guarantee of an acceptance.
I built a foundation based on an assumption, which turned out to be a lesson learned for future references. You can't fall in love with something that doesn't exist, and I did.
But the heartbreak from the breakup of that non-existent relationship saved my future. You have a few years to shoot your shot in the professional world after the safety blanket of college life.
My point is, it is okay to feel out the loss and mourn the death of something that meant something to you. It is probably devastating because it meant something to you and if it wasn't then it probably didn't mean that much to you. And on the upside from that, if you weren't upset by it then you know that it wasn't the place for you.
There is that in-between of after college and high school where you feel kind of stuck, and uncertainty doesn't make a good remedy for those feelings.
Enjoy the summer. Embrace the opportunities of a different adventure.