I Refuse To Be Stressed This Summer

I Refuse To Be Stressed This Summer

I'm tired of waking up exhausted from the day I'm going to have.
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I’ve spent this school year working my butt off. And I’m not saying other people haven’t. I don’t want to imply that I think I deserve anything more than other people do. But that being said, I am exhausted.

I’m annoyed most of the time as soon as I wake up because I’ve been doing so much on campus every day that when I have free time, I’ve still been swamped. I’ve been studying at work, working out my work schedule in class, and doing classwork at my RSO. Everything has overlapped to the point where I was doing only the essential school work, and only when there was practically no time left to do it except 2AM.

I’ve been living in the library and haven’t checked out something I want to read in months. I’ve been focused on doing laundry before I get home so I won't have to do laundry as soon as I get home. I’ve been so stressed that I haven’t even begun to let it set in that my roommate moved out today and in another day, I’ll be in a house I haven’t spent more than a couple days in, in total.

All around, I’ve felt like I’ve been stretched too thin without ever admitting it.

And now, I’m not even mad that my only real responsibilities are few and far between. I have my work schedule worked out, but I’m not worried about work. I’m not mad at myself for not having an internship, or a perfect beach body, or a semester abroad. I’m ready to sit on my porch and read a good book. Maybe I’ll decrease my Netflix “To watch” list a little more. Go to a museum. Ride in my friend’s car with no destination. I’m ready to act like this summer is going to be the best one yet.

I’m excited to go get lunch with my grandparents and ask my grandma to teach me to make apple pie. I can’t wait to not have board game club meetings to plan and coordinate and have some space to breathe planning next semester. I’m excited to delegate tasks and act like a president instead of making the title mean that I need to shoulder everything. Oh, and I’ll have game nights still, anyway.

I want to act like I have some idea of what I want to do and make plans to "adult" next summer. I want to plan ahead without the strain of making everything work right this second. I want to stop being anxious and overthinking how things could work out and focus on letting things work out the way they will anyway.

I can’t wait to write letters to my friend in the Navy and Facebook message my best friend in Miami and play What Do You Meme on my roommate-turned-friend’s floor while we talk about how excited we are about next year living on the same floor. We don’t want any drama next year, and I’ve accepted not living together won’t be the end of the world.

It's all going to be okay.

Cover Image Credit: Abigail Hunter

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13 Summer Struggles Only Thick Girls Understand

Chafing. So much chafing.

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Summer is a lovely time. A time of cookouts, swimming, and sunny weather. But if you're a " thick girl," summer sometimes brings more unpleasantries than it does for slimmer women. No matter how beautiful and confident you are in your body, it can bring some struggles.

1. The living hell that is shorts-shopping

Step 1: Find the biggest size the store has.

Step 2: (If you can even get those on): Realize your stomach is being squeezed into the top, your butt is falling out of the back and your thighs are having the life squished out of them.

Step 3: Realize why winter isn't so bad.

2. And dealing with them even after finding a pair that "fits"

Nothing like taking a pair of shorts home you remember fitting you okay in the store and then walking for 45 seconds and pulling them out of your butt or crotch 17 times. Truly a magical experience.

3. And every bathing suit you try on shows more skin than you'd planned

Even the most conservative bathing suit turns into cleavage-city and a non-cheeky set of bottoms turns into a thong. I promise, older people glaring at me in my sexual bathing suit, I didn't mean for this to happen!

4. Chafing. So much chafing.

No better feeling than four minutes into wearing short shorts realizing that your inner thighs are literally tearing themselves apart. Body Glide and baby powder are a thick girl's No. 1 necessity.

5. Loving rompers. Rompers not loving you.

Rompers are made with short and skinny girls in mind. Heaven forbid you're not short, and heaven forbid you're not skinny. Rompers are like a mystical article of clothing that, no matter what, always just barely doesn't fit.

6. Imagining wearing a sundress with a strapless bra and just laughing

Of course, not all thick girls are well-endowed in the boob department, but if you are, you understand how hilarious the thought of you wearing a strapless bra truly is.

7. And bralettes are a thing of fantasy

Once again, bralettes are designed for a very specific body type. One that I do not fall into.

8. Feeling like you need to constantly defend yourself for dressing like you want to

There are so many posts and tweets and just general ideals that people have that certain sized women can't wear certain clothing. You shouldn't feel the need to defend yourself for wearing a cute crop top or a bikini, but you will.

9. And always feeling looked at when you're rocking your swimsuit

Yes, I see your judging eyes, and yes, they are making me feel like shit. It doesn't matter how confident you are in your body, people looking at you like you just killed somebody just because you're wearing something typically made for smaller women doesn't make you feel good.

10. Did I mention chafing?

I just felt like something so horrible couldn't just be mentioned once.

11. Online shopping for cute summer outfits and then none of them fitting you correctly

There's always the dreaded "one-size-fits-all" for plus-size women. As if there's just one way to be plus-size. No matter how much they promise online that it'll fit well, it won't.

12. Seeing tiny girls complaining about losing their "summer bodies"

So many tweets talking about choosing food over a summer body. So many profile pictures of traditionally skinny women. I'm not saying that thick girls are the only ones who can complain about their summer bodies, and thick girls do not have a monopoly one not feeling confident in their bodies. But it is hard to see those posts knowing that those women would be glorified in their swimwear while you'd be gawked at.

13. The "you go girl!" comments on your oh-so-brave bikini photos

Compliments are nice, and positive comments while wearing a bikini go a long way. But the dreaded "you go girl" comment just seems so condescending. Just treat me like anyone else you'd see wearing a bikini. I promise, I'd like to feel like that.

Cover Image Credit: Sara Petty

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To The Stressed Out College Student, Be Optimistic For Spring Quarter

I am looking forward to a productive spring quarter.

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As a strenuous ten weeks of winter quarter is finally coming to a close, there is no better feeling than to be rewarded with a week of spring break. For most colleges and universities, this period of time is one of excitement and relief, as students approach a summer vacation that begins in May. Yet, for students with schedules revolving around the lovable (and often hatable) quarter system, it feels as though summer is far from our reach.

On a personal note, my previous ten weeks of classes have been bearable at best. I can proudly say that I have been counting down the days until spring break since our winter quarter began in January, though now that the week is finally approaching, I am reminded by the fact that I have yet another ten weeks of school in the near future. Interestingly enough, I have not started the countdown to June 18th quite yet. Instead, I am looking forward to a productive spring quarter that will leave me feeling energized and accomplished as I enter into a fresh summer.

I believe that the spring quarter withholds a sense of refreshment and newfound energy in comparison to that of fall and winter. Though students on the quarter system will end classes later than others, there is something to be said for spending days on campus when the warm weather finally breaks. Time seems to pass faster than it did in the dark and ominous weeks of winter quarter, and everyone seems to have a more positive attitude - as we can all see that vacation is approaching.

To the stressed out college student, be optimistic for spring quarter. Though tests and finals will still be ever-present, the completion of another ten weeks of classes is excellent motivation to achieve success and reward yourself within the coming months.

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