In honor of mental health awareness month, I find it appropriate to talk about my journey with ptsd. I also struggle from anxiety and depression, but I've found that PTSD is the illness people are less educated on. I am not speaking on behalf of anyone but myself.
A common misconception is that ptsd only affects people who have lived through war and major accidents. However this is so false. I got ptsd from Jacob’s accident. When the shock started to wear off, this illness began to take over my brain.
It's hard to pinpoint exactly when it started, because ptsd shares a lot of traits with depression and anxiety. My counselor and I believe it began when I started putting things in my car in case I ever saw a motorcycle accident. This began late last September and I was officially diagnosed in April.
People that suffer from ptsd have triggers. Everyone reacts to their triggers differently. I am still learning what mine are. I do know that my triggers push me back into different stages of my grieving process. A majority of mine make me extremely angry. People who are close to me have seen this first hand.
PTSD is not something that should be taken lightly. It's brutal and miserable. Before my diagnosis I thought I was going actually going insane. It effects me every second I'm awake and every time I fall asleep.
Thankfully I have literally the strongest group of people surrounding me. My family, friends, and support group are here to take every step with me. They have all been so incredibly kind and patient with me. I do like to keep my worst triggers private because I understand not everyone is a good person, and I fear someone will intentionally try to trigger me. But the more basic and obvious ones are certain cars and motorcycles.
Please take the time to educate yourself on this illness if someone you love has it, they will appreciate it. You also might begin to understand why they are, the way they are.