We have all been in that spot lacking the support we wished we could have but never seemed to receive. Sometimes the main people who always tell you that you mean the world to them might not care at all. The thing is, even when it seems like the best choice is to give up. You have to just keep going. Realize what you want, not what everyone wants of you. That's what matter's at the sbd of the day. Life hurts, face it and keep strutting

Know Your Worth

Call of the void

That sudden feeling you get to swerve into traffic knowing you could kill yourself and everyone with you,

Even if you never take that step

Well why does it feel like more than a call

More than a push to just wreck

It's not me being suicidal or even afraid to face the thought

It's just sometimes I see a cliff, and I wonder what would happen to jump off

I want to know the feeling of falling

To know what it is to plummet

I feel it in my chest sometimes

But sometimes it feels like vomit

I hear silence in the laughter around me

Not because I want to,

I just hate caring for others that don't give a care about you

And yes there's those that claim to love you

And say that you're never alone

But unless you chase their attention

They walk past you like you're unknown

I often wonder what it'd be like to fake my death

But I'd be too hurt by the lack of effort

Lack of care

Id ask the question

Why my so-called friends showed not to the funeral

But the reception

I see more people involved

when they know it's only for gain

Then anyone who'd show up after

To actually listen to the pain

They claim

I'm always here

I'm not just some random Jo

But the moment you say anything

You hear the groans like a megaphone

So tell me...

What is a man to do

is he just supposed to deal?

Cause I miss the feeling of

At least having something real

But the will to just exist?

I just never see the appeal

So I hope you suck up these words up

Like it's the final meal

Because I'm done planting the seed

Cause if you reap what you sow

Then this isn't what I need