The threshold of that door is where all our secrets lie.
with one touch you'll be burnt with too many regrets and desires.
To say I don't miss you would be a lie, but the you I miss is not a person, it's a recollection of what you used to be mixed together with all the lies
I keep that memory folded, tucked away. That little piece of bliss, where I let my ignorance take over and succumb to my nostalgia, that’s where you live, where you stay
I try to remove you from my brain day after day
night after night, but you refuse
my mind won't let you go; my heart can't loose grip, it's clung to the idea of what we had and who you were
My emotions become irrelevant when your eyes give me everything I need
I run to that door every time, hoping once my feet are over that threshold
your story will unfold, the walls that contain you will fall crumble and that barrier that stops us will be no more
That I'll be able to break you down; I'll be able to save myself from the path that I decided to travel.
I run to that door, the handles locked, it won't budge I hit it, I scream, I break
I can't cross the threshold, I can't fix what's broken
That's the hardest thing to accept when your best isn't better than the rest
when the passion you feel, the love you share doesn't matter
When you've become irrelevant in your own life.
That lock will never come off
We both know
Everyone lusts for trust yet it the hardest to accept, but
I hope one day it's all worth it and u find what you've been searching for and I hope when you finally find it you're not left wanting more
I hope that she gives you everything she has
I hope you care about her just the same
I hope those smiles aren't faked and that happiness lasts
And even though it's selfish I hope sometimes you think about me and remember what we had and even if it's only a second you dive back into the past
And remember
How I gave it all to you, yet I wasn't worth a second chance
I wish I had the ability to let go of this regret
I wish I could wish you well, but it's hard to when I'm stuck in your hell.