To the person who needs this,
Stop pleasing people, you don’t always have to be happy, or always have to be “on”. Eventually you will reach a breaking point. People aren’t going to not like you or not want to be around you if you don’t do something for them.
I too have fallen victim to this awful never ending cycle of despair. These past two years I’ve acted happy when in reality I just want to stay home and cry because I can’t please those people. To be quite honest with you I’ve lost myself these past two years.
I’ve asked myself “Why do people try so hard to please people?”, and it has never been answered. It’s like the meaning of life no one knows the answer to that, but we have a few theories. Everyone is different so that answer will be determined by that individual; as humans we like to give insight on things no one asked for our insight on. (like I am now)
So if you’re struggling with this, just remember people will judge you, break you down, and burn your life to the ground. Don’t look at it as you letting that person down or giving up, think of it as giving them a chance to take this as a learning opportunity. They have to learn how to problem solve and use tools they have to do so.
Speak loudly, live boldly, love entirely!
~Chey