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I’m Not Running Away, I Just Need Time To Overcome My Inner Demons

I will never let myself down again.

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Overcoming your inner demons

I have always perceived myself as a strong-minded individual who knows what to do in the face of difficulties — someone who doesn't give up easily, even when the going gets tough or when my loved ones are unsupportive.

But an incident occurred at the start of the year that showed me that even the strongest person will eventually break down and that there is nothing to be ashamed about.

I used to be really paranoid over my own vulnerabilities, believing that someone would judge me for them or that I wasn't fulfilling expectations. Slowly, these treacherous thoughts consumed me, and I inevitably gave in to my inner demons.

I fought hard. I struggled. But all these efforts went down the drain.

There was a period of time when I had to live with all these negativities within me. Every single day felt like a chore, and I only looked forward to the times when I could be alone. I pushed everyone else away and just wanted to be on my own.

I thought that I would at least still feel comfortable if it was just me, myself and I. Unfortunately, I didn't. Slowly, I found myself becoming my own worst critic, constantly judging myself for my past mistakes and questionable decisions.

Those were really tough times, and I hope no one else ever has to go through them.

Learning to overcome your inner demons and running away from your problems are, in fact, two sides of the same coin. The common factor in both is time, yet the underlying meaning is so different.

Running away when problems arise is an act of escapism, as well as a form of self-denial. This can be detrimental. Nothing gets resolved while you continue to mourn over your pathetic state of mind. The worst thing is, this cyclical agony and anxiety within you can spiral and become beyond irreparable. Damage control is even tougher after that.

But learning to overcome your inner demons takes time. As a matter of fact, it takes a lot of time. Some take years to overcome them, whereas some choose to compromise and live with them.

So, what did I choose?

I took a step back and reflected on my past — mistakes, accomplishments, everything. I don't regret what I did, but I will make sure not to make the same mistakes again. Taking a break from time to time is different from slacking off and running away from your problems.

Do acknowledge that no one can be perfect. Falling from time to time proves that you are human. Just try to live a little, but never allow your inner demons to take control of you ever again.

This is what I promised myself. I will never let myself down again.

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