Dear old friend,
I am writing this because I have not found a way to let you know that I have moved on. It has been months since we have broken up, but for some reason you insisted on keeping me near. At first I did not object because I always held hope that we would some day get back together, but it’s time. It’s my time now; I’m focusing on myself and putting myself first for a change.
I told you once before that I was ready to make our once wonderful relationship a part of the past, but you reeled me in and kept me close. You gave me false hope for what the future might hold. I had a glimpse of hope for a second there, but I quickly realized that this was not our time.
I was not a priority of yours; I felt that you were just keeping me near as a backup just in case you ended up alone one night or wanted to someone to be there for you because no one else was, but that wasn’t fair of you. It wasn’t fair to me that you kept me from reaching my full potential and being happy. Holding that false hope made me die on the inside because I felt as if I was getting heartbroken every single day.
Please do not misunderstand me because I love the person that you are and I know you did not mean to treat me so poorly. I could never imagine you would purposely want to hinder me from reaching happiness, but I need you to understand that you were selfish. You only thought about yourself when planning “our” future. It was all about whether or not you had time for me and whether you were ready to be with me, but what about me? I guess I let you take control of the way I felt, and I apologize for giving you so much control over me.
It’s been months now. I was alone and I was surprisingly happy. I found happiness through my writing; I found motivation through my school work and I found comfort in my friends. I quickly realized that I was insanely happy being alone. I loved you, but I was happy focusing on myself. During my alone time I fell in love; I fell in love with myself. I didn’t know how great I was, but damn I am pretty amazing and I deserve so much more, so I gave it to myself.
I think our past was beautiful and I will never hold anything against you, but at this point in my life I am so focused on my own happiness that I did not know how to tell you that I moved on. I will always wish you the best, and I hope that you are able to find happiness in yourself as well.
With love,
Maybelle
