Dear Friend,

You know it's kinda funny; to this day, I'm not even sure what to really call you. Are we still friends? I guess I still don't know the answer because our friendship didn't end suddenly, nor did it end in a nasty fight or disagreement. It was one of those endings that sort of tapered off, and I slowly started to realize that the "Hey, I miss you" messages appeared less and less across my phone screen.

We were the definition of best friends starting from middle school to high school. The kind of friendship we had, other people our age were still struggling to find. We basically did everything together, and I remember that you would always make the best kind of jokes that were equally clever and hysterical. So why didn't you try and stay in touch? I guess I'll never really know...

Sometimes, I think it's all my fault that we never stayed best friends or even friends at all. I find myself thinking back to when I first noticed the distance in our relationship. What if I had called you more? Or what if I had texted you more? Maybe, if I had just simply never moved away? But, I know that you had a lot to do with it too. After I stopped blaming myself for our friendship ending, I started angrily blaming you. I would think back and wonder why you didn't try harder to keep in contact with me and I just wanted to know if losing our entire friendship would even really matter to you.

It used to make me sad to see you move on from our friendship so quickly, but now it's relieving to see that you're so happy. From what I can see, based off a few Snapchat stories and a couple tweets, it seems like you're having so much fun in life. I wish I could've been there for you during important life "firsts" and I wish you could've been there for mine; but you are a determined, and sometimes stubborn person, so whatever the problem or situation may be I know you can get through it and kick ass all by yourself.

I wasn't quite sure what our last conversation was about, so I went and looked it up in our old Facebook messages. The last time you had talked to me was when you wished me happy birthday, and when your birthday came around, I casually reiterated the same; it was like we both wanted each other to know that we still cared about one another, but in a simple way. Our last actual conversation we had before that was months earlier, and actually quite hilarious. It made me sappy and extremely nostalgic, so if you have some free time and want to reminisce a little while having a good laugh, I encourage you to read them too.

I just want to make it clear that I don't hate you and I have no resentment towards our fall out at all; I no longer blame this on myself or you anymore. After moving away from my hometown and meeting many new people, I have learned something quite valuable. Life invites so many amazing and wonderful people into your life, and it may seem like you could never live without them.

But, as life goes on you grow; your friends grow, your family grows and you find that even the people you thought you couldn't bear to live without, are the same people you're distancing yourself from. It took me so long to come to terms with the fact that this can be a good thing. I don't doubt that you were in my life for a reason, and I feel as if our impact on each others personal lives has helped turned us in to the strong women we are today.

I want to thank you. You were an amazing friend to have and I hope someone else gets the pleasure of calling you their true BFF someday. If someone has already filled that role, then I hope they are everything you could've ever asked for in a best friend. I also wish that your life is full of happiness that outweighs any heartbreak and maybe we can catch up in the future and you can tell me all about it one day.

P.S. Don't settle for anyone who doesn't appreciate your jokes or puns because they deserved to be laughed at (and sometimes in the form of an ugly snort).

Love,

Someone who is still rooting for you on the sidelines