Hello again,

I told myself I would never speak to you again. You tried to take away the one thing that I had left within me -- confidence. What you don't know is that the joke is on you. I came out from this stronger. What you thought you did in tearing me down actually built me back up. You made me feel cold as ice and that only your touch would melt away the pain. You tried to burn down my buildings of esteem only to have me rise form the ashes as the Phoenix that I am.

Hello again, my old friends,

Do you remember the things that you used to speak to me? The "you are worthless" and the endless "I will be the only one to love you" things that you thought would make me stay with you. What you didn't realize is that I'm stronger than what you think and more than what you believe. I am the person that you wished you never met because I am too independent to fall into your little guilt trap.

Hello again, my great enemy,

I have finally conquered you. I'm done stressing over what you did to me to make my head feel dizzy and my insides feel like they are full of blood. I'm done stressing over the treatments I needed to function after you tried to push the life out of me. I'm done thinking about you and everything you stand for. You stand for my insecurities. You stand for my fears. You stand for what I thought would make me feel nothing. But now, I stand for what makes me feel something.

Hello again, false love,

You tried me into thinking that love was a game that you could carefully play on both me and her. You tried to dance around boundaries to turn one to two, but as soon as I found out about your cruel plot, I subtracted myself from your equation. You don't get to win. You don't get to keep both. You get to see me walk away.

For the longest time, I let all of you control what I thought. "Am I pretty enough?" "Am I not good enough for you?" "Why did you leave me for them?" I have come to realize that the reason you left was because I was ahead of your time. You realized that stepping all over me was not going to get you what you wanted, but you weren't the only one to think so. I realized that allowing you to step all over me was not going to get me where I wanted.

Hello again,

I know that I'm not alone in this. I know that there are others out there who have felt how I felt and will feel how I feel. Know that you aren't alone. You don't need to trade kisses for what you think you're missing and you don't need to mistake love for trickery. Ask yourself if you are truly happy. Ask yourself if you can see yourself and not just the you that he/she wants you to be. Ask yourself if all the nights you stayed up wondering, waiting, wishing and crying were worth it. You are stronger than you know. You are more than what you believe. You can leave anytime you want to. They are not holding you back. The only one holding you back is yourself.

Do not let what has happened in your past define who you are. You are more than what you are labeled. You are more than your experiences. From the wise words of an unknown artist, "You were given this life because you were strong enough to live it." Next time that someone tries to tear you down, remember that you were made to handle this and to rise above it.

Sincerely,
The girl who won't stop fighting