Dear friends/family/acquaintances,
I would like to start off by apologizing for not responding to you. Emails, texts, phone calls... you name it. It's not that I'm intentionally ignoring you; I'm really not trying to push you away, but if you could see the schedule I'm on right now you might understand. The majority of my days start at or before 7 a.m., and I know that to some people that may seem like sleeping in and to others super early; my issue is that while my day starts at 7, I'm usually going non-stop until midnight.
Nursing lectures or clinical will start off my day, and I might see that you tried to text or call me last night while I was studying, but by the time I pull up your message in the morning class has started and I have to put my phone away. Between classes consists of planning group work and traveling from the nursing building to main campus; talking to professors and participating in test reviews. When classes end for the day around 4 or 5 o'clock I either have work or soccer lifts or both, and by the time I'm completely done for the day it's 8:30 p.m. and I still have assignments to do for tomorrow. At this point, I've most likely completely forgotten about your text and it's probably sitting there on my phone, already acknowledged but forgotten before I could do anything about it.
Tuesdays are the worst because morning clinical starts at 6:45 a.m. 30 minutes from the school, and lasts until around 1 o' clock, at which point I have to drive back to school and get ready for my afternoon class; contacting me between 5 a.m. and 2 p.m. can just about guarantee that you're text or call will go unnoticed.
The rest of the week isn't much better; sometimes it's worse depending on exams and papers, so the weekend is really my best shot at keeping up with all of the social aspects of my life. By Friday night however, so much time has usually passed that I feel awkward responding to your text. Somehow saying that I was just too busy this week or too overwhelmed isn't quite enough, especially when I have to recycle that excuse day after day.
I want you to know that I'm sorry, and to explain my actions. It's not that I don't want to talk to you, it's just that I don't know how right now. Sometimes I spend so much energy pretending that I have it all together that there's nothing left for anything else. Try talking to me come May and I might have my life together after classes end, but that's anybody's guess. I'm not asking for your sympathy, just for your understanding. I chose this life and these classes for a reason, and I'm excited to see the results; it's the "getting there" that has me so flustered.
So I'm sorry for the complaining, and the lack of interaction. I'm not trying to ignore you, but it seems to be a symptom of the lifestyle. I hope you can bear with me until graduation (and perhaps even beyond).
Thanks for understanding,
Your favorite nursing student