To my best friend, at a distance,

Distance. Bleh. Gross. Being hours away from someone you love with all of your heart is hands down one of the hardest, most painful things in all of the world. I knew college was going to be full of changes and challenges, I knew my life was about to alter in a lot of ways, a myriad of aspects, but I honestly never considered what a toll being miles and miles away from my best friend would take on my life. Someone’s presence is so simple yet so complex, and as time goes on it is easily something that is taken for granted. You are no exception.

I no longer get to attend class with you or even walk to class with you for that matter, I don’t get to decide I want to have a sleepover with you minutes before pulling into your driveway, and I don’t get to enjoy spending time with you, grab coffee at one in the afternoon with you or make brownies at one in the morning with you. Go on adventures with you.

These are very small things, but they are the biggest of things to me. Our friendship does not have an expiration date so I am by no means worried about us running out of time, I just wish there was more of it. I wish I could meet you at the library so we could get nothing done together. I wish you were here for lazy Sunday's, so we could try every single last coffee shop together. I wish you were here so we could celebrate the little and big victories alike.

Deal with the little and big heartaches alike. Make our separate experiences joint experiences. I know you are always a text or phone call away, but it’s just not the same. I want to tell you everything in person so I can see the look on your face, the intensity in your eyes towards the matter. We are so alike, so joined at the hip, that I simply feel more like myself when we are together. I am in no way trying to lessen the wonderful college friends I have made, it’s just that none of them are you.

Everyone has that one go-to person, and you are that person for me. I know that we are doing life together, I just wish we had the pleasure of this always being face to face.

This tragic distance does, however, make our reunited moments that much sweeter. I live for the times we finally get to catch up in person instead of over broken paragraphs in the form of texting and shared tweets.

I do believe I jump and bear hug you literally every single time I see you, but having to go weeks and unfortunately sometimes months without seeing you makes me tackle you that much harder. It makes me laugh that much more with you, it makes me want to play that song with those lyrics that we both have embedded into our souls, into our veins, that much louder. Over and over again so we can scream it at the top of our lungs.

When we are together, I don’t have to rely on pictures and playlists to make me feel less alone, I actually have you to reassure me and let me know things will work out. Maybe not today or tomorrow, maybe not even this year. But maybe next year and you will still be my best friend then. Maybe next decade and you will still be my best friend then.

I always have something to look forward to, because we are either with each other or we aren’t. We are either apart and I’m counting down the days until I get to see you again, or we are together and I am looking forward to all the memories we are about to make.

Even at a tragic distance, I am proud of you, and of us, as we do college together. You are my secret weapon, or at least I like to think so. A behind the scenes part of me not everyone knows about, that not everyone sees, that I get to pull out at any given moment when I need you, despite the fact I always do.

We are a perfect pair, a dynamic duo, and every second we spend apart makes every second spent together triple in preciousness. Even from way too far away, I feel you as near as the skin I wear over my bones. I will continue to meet you halfway, plan around our separate schedules, and bug you over the phone until we are at the point I can just knock on your door again.

As cheesy Pinterest would say, “Distance means so little when someone means so much.”

I love you the same up close as I do far away, and I will always find a way to get to you.