To my old best friend,
You make me so angry. Once best friends, connected at the hip talking every day and now it’s been over a year since we last spoke. I always wonder if it’s something I have done that made us grow apart or if it was just the distance.
Everyone says that once you go to college you lose all of your old friends. They weren’t wrong, but I never expected to lose you too. From the nights we stayed up watching movies, all the secrets you knew, the trips we went on and the crazy adventures too. It’s sad to say that when I look at you today you are a completely different person than who I knew growing up.
Yes, college changes people and that’s okay. I just see how you live your life now and I wish I could be there to help you. The choices you are making, and the things that you do aren’t who I knew the old you to be like.
I remember when we first became friends and soon grew closer and closer. Our friendship was unstoppable, I was always so jealous of you. You were funnier, prettier, smarter.. but all of that doesn’t matter anymore.
We always talked about the future and how we would be best friends until we were old ladies. How we would be each other’s maid of honor and how we would be the opposite child’s godmother. How we would travel the world and conquer all of the things growing on our bucket lists.
You were the Blair to my Serena, and I don’t know what to do without you anymore. Our friendship would have been 8 years strong had we stayed friends. I just wish you would have tried harder to make this friendship work once we moved away.
But something changed, you changed and the person I see today is a complete stranger in my eyes. So all I have to say is good luck in life. I hope you’re new best friends make you happy and you get everything you deserve in life.
So thank you for leaving me behind, for I have found so much out about myself without being in your shadow. You were never a true friend, never honestly there for me like I needed you to be. That is why I am angry at you.
Why I’m mad, because after trying so hard to be the best friend I could possibly be you just leave me in the dust. No text, no call, no I miss you.. you left me with nothing. What really hurts is the fact that the last time I saw you was the hardest goodbye.
It was the best hello though. Which is even harder, I doubt I’ll ever get another hello from you again. But thank you for making me realize how much better off I am without you.
You have helped shape me into who I am today. This may be true, but that doesn’t mean I don’t still resent you. Live your best life, I miss you B.
- Your Serena