You came into my life at what I thought was the "perfect" time. You sent chills down my spine with that perfect smile and gesture. I thought you were everything I had prayed for. However, too bad I didn't know then what I know now.

I was willing to give you my heart which is not easily given, but I would never have yours in return.

Little did I know then what I was competing with —the lost memories, the laughter, the deep love you have for her. I'd never be the girl you wanted, even with all the lies you told.

"I like you and where this is going," you said to me constantly for months when I asked where we stood.

Yet, I'm not the girl you text when you can't sleep in the middle of the night. I'm not the only one you're calling 'baby' or even who you truly want to spend your time with and it's not even her fault. I'm just there for your own pure convenience.

Or I used to be, but I will never fall for those slick lies again.

I'm not the girl you love and you know what, I'm more than okay with that.

I might not be her, but I'm beautiful to someone.

I might not be her, but I'm intelligent.

I might not be her, but I'm adventurous.

I might not be her, but I am myself.

I might have wasted time and tears on you, but it taught me my own self-worth. You showed me I deserve more than you would've ever given me. I deserve a man, not a boy, who doesn't treat me as a second choice to another female, but as a top priority next to God and his family. I deserve someone who is working on providing a better life for himself instead of focusing on how drunk he can get during the weekend.

I may have wanted you to be a part of my life and I used to think the world of you, but thank you for opening my eyes and showing me that what I wished for months wasn't what I needed.