I'm Not Sorry For Falling In Love With Your Man

I'm Not Sorry For Falling In Love With Your Man

I wanted that hope in my life, even if I took it from yours.

I shouldn't love you. Everything was off, especially the timing.

How can you meet someone so perfect for you, but at such a bad time? I know this perplexing feeling, and it's crushing.

Because all you want is them but you know what you are doing is wrong. In this case, it's because he is attached to someone else. I know, I know. People are going to call me a slut, home-wrecker, and so many other bad names.

The thing is...I have no defense and I tell him not to defend me either because they aren't wrong.

Not one word is wrong. It doesn't matter that I only had two boyfriends and never kissed a guy until I was 19. It doesn't matter that I never had negative intentions with him, but that I was lonely and we connected over shared interests.

Honestly, neither of us planned this. I know I didn't.

If anything, I resisted as much as I could. There are no excuses for what we did. It doesn't matter that I would console myself with "their relationship has been over for years" because it was never formally over. Until me.

I wish I never hurt you because I'm sure you are just as human as I am. I'm sure you deserve someone to love you the way he loves me and I love him. Don't you owe it to yourself to find someone who doesn't cheat on you?

I bet you laugh at the fact that he very well may cheat on me. I'm willing to take that risk, and I hope the leopard can change its spots. I believe in him. I believe in us. I know he wants to spend his life with me, no matter how long that may be.

I call myself a feminist but after what I've done to you, I question myself and my loyalty to women. I question if I'm a good person. Many people will say no but I like to think I still am.

I hurt you. He hurt you. You hurt him.

Everyone hurts everyone.

It's an endless cycle, one I don't believe will ever end. I learned to be wary and distrustful of people and I'm sorry for that because he made me begin to trust people again. That's why I love him. He had so much hope and love for people, despite being hurt time and time again.

I wanted that hope in my life, even if I took it from yours.

Here's the thing I learned though: I'm none of those things I mentioned earlier. I'm just a girl, who fell in love with your man and I'm so very sorry for hurting you, but I don't regret making him mine. I don't think you'll ever understand how sorry I am that I hurt you because I truly believe in supporting and respecting all women.

But I'm human who makes mistakes and falls in love. I'm a human, who hurts people and continues the cycle. I'm not a slut, even though you say I am. I'm not a home-wrecker, even though people will say so, even if your home was broken long before I came along.

I'm a girl who found a man that needed one push to leave a broken relationship. He needed a friend, someone to listen to him about his day. I'm not some succubus that seduced your man into her bed with her wild sex tricks. I have zero sex tricks. I'm as vanilla as they get.

I'm just a girl who fell in love with the right man at the wrong time, and you know what?

I'm not sorry for that.

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17 Songs To Listen To When A Boy Plays With Your Heart

"Do you miss me like I miss you? Messed around and got attached to you. Friends can break your heart too, and I'm always tired but never of you."

We've all been through it. The uncertainty and confusion. Does he actually like me? Or does he have an ultimatum? Sometimes you've just gotta listen to some good breakup songs to realize if it's time to drop him or keep trying.

1. Shoutout to My Ex - Little Mix

"Here's to my ex, hey, look at me now! Well, I, I'm all the way up, I swear you'll never bring me down."

2. Attention - Charlie Puth

"You just want attention, you don't want my heart, maybe you just hate the thought of me with someone new."

3. It's Alright, It's OK - Ashley Tisdale

"You played me, betrayed me, your love was nothing but a game. Portrait a role, you took control, I couldn't help but fall so deep, but now I see things clear."

4. Hair - Little Mix

"When you see him in the club, just flip your hair, don't show him any love cause you've had enough."

5. i hate u, i love u - Gnash ft. Olivia O'Brien

"Do you miss me like I miss you? Messed around and got attached to you. Friends can break your heart too, and I'm always tired but never of you."

6. Just a Little Bit of Your Heart - Ariana Granda

"I know I'm not your only, but I'll still be a fool cause I'm a fool for you."

7. Let Her Go - Passenger

"Only know you love her when you let her go, and you let her go."

8. What Hurts The Most - Rascal Flatts

"What hurts the most was being so close and havin' so much to say and watchin' you walk away."

9. That Would Be Enough - Alicia Keys

"We don’t need a legacy, we don’t need money. If I could grant you peace of mind if you could let me inside your heart."

10. Blues Leave Me Too - Ricky Gene Hall & The Goods

"Well you said when we first met, you like to spend your time alone, and now I know you told the truth, cause it wasn't long and you were gone."

11. Out Loud - Gabbie Hanna

"Can you tell me where we went wrong? At least tell me just to move on."

12. Irreplaceable - Beyonce

"I can have another you by tomorrow, so don't you ever for a second get to thinking you're irreplaceable."

13. Tell Me a Lie - One Direction

"There must have been a time I was the reason for that smile."

14. Take a Bow - Rihanna

"Don't tell me you're sorry cause you're not. Baby, when I know you're only sorry you got caught."

15. Tell Me You Love Me - Demi Lovato

"Oh, tell me you love me. I need someone on days like this, I do."

16. Break My Heart - Hey Violet

"Tell me you've never loved me, tell me that it wasn't real, just say you've found somebody else."

17. The Story of Us - Taylor Swift

"Now I'm standing alone In a crowded room and we're not speaking and I'm dying to know is it killing you like it's killing me?"

Sometimes, a breakup is inevitable. Not every relationship is meant to work out. Remember, boys might leave, but great music never will.

Check out these songs and many more on Spotify.

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Every Girlfriend Should Try Her Boyfriend's Favorite Video Games

If you can't beat him, join him.

If you are a girlfriend, you probably know what it feels like to despise all game systems ever created. They’re the second – if not first – love to almost all guys and what’s worse than your boyfriend paying more attention to zombies than you, right? I completely understand.

But what if you joined the game? AHA!

Of course, at this point, you’re probably confused and thinking “I don’t even like video games,” but you will never understand their thrill of stupidity until you step into their shoes.

Instead of standing in front of the television with your arms folded, patiently waiting for him to turn the system off, ask him for the joystick. He’ll probably question you as a joke or tell you, "you’re going to ruin my online rep.” But stand firm in your decision: play the game.

In my experience, I ended up playing NBA Basketball 2k18 and before I knew it I was screaming at the TV saying “AND ONE!” while my boyfriend watched me impatiently. As a guy, he constantly wanted to partake and quote on quote “help me,” but ladies we can’t have that.

Three words, “I’ve got this.”

Long story short, I was playing video games for five hours without even realizing it! It was like a burst of energy soared through my body during those moments and I was never even a little bit tired.

I had finally stepped into his shoes and felt the adrenaline of staying up all night, yelling at my television and actually winning video games.

I would like to compare it to doing drugs. Although, I am not a junky like most guys have become.

I’m not sure exactly how they last so long because I eventually realized I had class the next morning and real life was still happening, but for a split second I gave them the benefit of the doubt.

All in all, girlfriends let’s take the shoe off their foot and put it on ours. You may fall in love with video games or you may still never figure it out, but it never hurts to try! You never know, you could actually end up developing a stronger bond in your relationship, just by nagging less and joining the nonsense.

But guys, this is still not an excuse to ignore her. I repeat, not an excuse.

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