I'm Not Sorry For Falling In Love With Your Man

I'm Not Sorry For Falling In Love With Your Man

I wanted that hope in my life, even if I took it from yours.
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I shouldn't love you. Everything was off, especially the timing.

How can you meet someone so perfect for you, but at such a bad time? I know this perplexing feeling, and it's crushing.

Because all you want is them but you know what you are doing is wrong. In this case, it's because he is attached to someone else. I know, I know. People are going to call me a slut, home-wrecker, and so many other bad names.

The thing is...I have no defense and I tell him not to defend me either because they aren't wrong.

Not one word is wrong. It doesn't matter that I only had two boyfriends and never kissed a guy until I was 19. It doesn't matter that I never had negative intentions with him, but that I was lonely and we connected over shared interests.

Honestly, neither of us planned this. I know I didn't.

If anything, I resisted as much as I could. There are no excuses for what we did. It doesn't matter that I would console myself with "their relationship has been over for years" because it was never formally over. Until me.

I wish I never hurt you because I'm sure you are just as human as I am. I'm sure you deserve someone to love you the way he loves me and I love him. Don't you owe it to yourself to find someone who doesn't cheat on you?

I bet you laugh at the fact that he very well may cheat on me. I'm willing to take that risk, and I hope the leopard can change its spots. I believe in him. I believe in us. I know he wants to spend his life with me, no matter how long that may be.

I call myself a feminist but after what I've done to you, I question myself and my loyalty to women. I question if I'm a good person. Many people will say no but I like to think I still am.

I hurt you. He hurt you. You hurt him.

Everyone hurts everyone.

It's an endless cycle, one I don't believe will ever end. I learned to be wary and distrustful of people and I'm sorry for that because he made me begin to trust people again. That's why I love him. He had so much hope and love for people, despite being hurt time and time again.

I wanted that hope in my life, even if I took it from yours.

Here's the thing I learned though: I'm none of those things I mentioned earlier. I'm just a girl, who fell in love with your man and I'm so very sorry for hurting you, but I don't regret making him mine. I don't think you'll ever understand how sorry I am that I hurt you because I truly believe in supporting and respecting all women.

But I'm human who makes mistakes and falls in love. I'm a human, who hurts people and continues the cycle. I'm not a slut, even though you say I am. I'm not a home-wrecker, even though people will say so, even if your home was broken long before I came along.

I'm a girl who found a man that needed one push to leave a broken relationship. He needed a friend, someone to listen to him about his day. I'm not some succubus that seduced your man into her bed with her wild sex tricks. I have zero sex tricks. I'm as vanilla as they get.

I'm just a girl who fell in love with the right man at the wrong time, and you know what?

I'm not sorry for that.

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What more do frat boys love than alcohol, partying, and just acting stupid? Here are some gifts that help fulfill all of those needs for the frat boy in your life!

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There is nothing better than spending time with someone you love. There is something about when the weather getting colder you cannot help but fall in love with spending time with someone special.

Cuddling by the fire is always an essential. Lets face it you are freezing from the outside why not get together make a pallet full of blankets and pillows, light the fire in the fire place, and get to cuddling while watching cute Christmas movies. It is a fun time to really get in some quality time with your significant other.

Driving around in the car looking at Christmas lights. So many people go completely all out on the lights outside of there house that why not enjoy all their hard work. I love Christmas lights as it is,but getting to spend time with someone you love just makes it that much better.

Ice Skating... Grab your skates and if you are anything like me you will need the wall to the skating rink without falling. You get to drink hot chocolate in between skating. It is always nice to get to have fun and do something you would not normally do any other time of the year.

Playing in the Snow, is such a fun time to get silly with your person, because you can truly let your inner child come out. You can have a snowball fight, make snow angles, or you can even build a snowball fort. Plus you and your date will be in so many layers that you will look like walking marshmallows which is always funny. With this one obviously it is not always ideal considering there is no guarantee it will actually snow, but if you get the chance I 100 percent recommend this one.

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