As a kid, I grew up in the pews of my southern church, in the art-covered walls of my youth group's room, and in the many places mission trips took me.

I've read parts of the Bible, but not all of it. I attended Sunday School, but sometimes I didn't pay attention. I know the stories, the hymns, and the history.

I know Jesus, but sometimes I fall short.

Every day, I face the internal struggle to avoid the social pressures 20-something-year-olds face. I struggle to avoid the negativity on social media. I struggle to avoid using inappropriate language. At times, I struggle to have hope. I struggle to love. I struggle to have grace in particular situations. I sometimes ask myself, "Why is God testing me? Why is he putting this person in my life? Why is he making me go through these situations?" I struggle to find answers. I struggle to talk to Him. I don't always pray. I don't always listen to the best music. I get frustrated. I ask questions.

But...

I'm always trying. I always look around and recognize that He created our world. I always think of my parents and know that I'm their daughter for a reason. I look at my boyfriend and know that God sent him to me. I know that, even if I don't get on my knees, the prayers I say in my head are being heard. Most of the time, I know that everything happens for a reason. I believe in His plan. More often than not, I do have hope and grace. I always wake up with a positive attitude. I always try to tell the truth. I look for signs that I'm doing okay. I try to read a verse or two, even if it's just on my Bible App. I'm always trying to better myself physically, emotionally, and spiritually. I'm always trying to grow closer to him. I constantly thank Him for forgiving my sins.

SO many people give Christians a hard time; being a Christian has kind of become "uncool." Additionally, more and more people are associating Christianity with "intolerance." While there are some Christians who do act ridiculously and who do give us a bad name, most of us are just normal human beings who make mistakes and who are constantly thriving to be better individuals.

It's not easy, but I am trying.

Every day, I feel lucky to know that He loves me unconditionally and wholeheartedly.

Every day, I feel lucky to know that He forgives my shortcomings.

Every day, I feel lucky to know that one day, if I try really heard and dedicate myself to a life of faith, I will see his face...and the faces of so many that I miss.

I know that I'm not a perfect Christian, but I'm trying.