I am writing to you because uttering my words through speech has not seemed quite fathomable. I deeply respect you, and so I believe that you will understand that writing to you is a part of my healing process. I just know if I keep emotions bottled up, I will cause myself even more pain.
Anyways, I truly just wanted to let you know that I am praying for you.
I pray that life brings you a path filled with so much happiness--something I hoped to have provided you a glimpse of.
I pray that you continue to bring your passions into endless people's lives--you are filled with so much talent, never forget that.
I pray that you continue to use your strength during the toughest times--so many people love and believe in you.
I pray that you still hope to fulfill your dreams--even if you are still discovering them.I pray that you share your heart and soul with the world--you are a positive influence on so many.
I also want to say thank you. Under the temporary frustrated, bitter, and selfish emotions, I truly was and still am grateful for our relationship.
The first night we had spent together I'll never forget the blissful state of euphoria I was in. After the last year and a half of experiencing depression and anxiety at an ultimate high, I never thought I would feel that way again. I am so grateful that moment occurred and reminded me that joy still exists.
Thank you for also giving me strength when you did not know it. I cannot tell you how many times I was distraught, so I listened to that James Arthur song you learned on guitar for me the first week we met. Your voice brought so much comfort to me.
Thank you for making me feel safe. Normally I am the person who flees in an instant from fear, and you gave me the confidence to break through the hesitations and trust in you.
Thank you for making me feel beautiful. Not just superficially, but I felt like you saw me. Thank you for taking the time to get to know that person.
Again, thank you for everything.
Finally, I hate to admit the mix of anger and sadness I have felt, especially in the last few weeks. I wished for you to meet my family, to surprise you with Hershey Park tickets, and create more memories. I had been hoping for a future, but I have accepted the different path that was meant for me.
With that being said, I just had to let you know through all the tears and late nights that I have spent thinking about this, I still care about you.
I wish you the best, and if you feel alone and ever need someone, I would be there for you in a heart beat. Always.
You will always have so much to offer.
With love, Becky.