This was inspired by college life, and needing to take a break from it.
Stress,
Worry,
I’m biting at my nails,
I can do this,
I know I can,
I want nothing more than to scream,
To scream at the top of my lungs,
Day after day,
Go to class,
Do homework,
Study,
But I don’t know how to study,
I don’t know how to do any of this,
They keep saying I learned how in high school,
But I didn’t,
In high school I didn’t have to try,
I could just go to class,
And I would pass,
Now I have homework,
That is actually needed to do,
I have to study for my test,
But I can’t,
I try,
I try so fucking hard,
But I need to study how to study,
And I can’t do that,
Not when I have everything else to do,
The worst part is,
I love it here,
I love learning new things,
I love going to class,
I just came underprepared,
So I’m going to take a break,
I’ll leave for a year,
Maybe two,
I’ll learn how to study,
I’ll learn how to research,
Then I’ll come back,
And when I do I’ll be prepared.