I'm Not 30 Or Flirty Or Thriving
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I'm Not 30 Or Flirty Or Thriving

Just 20 and crying

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I'm Not 30 Or Flirty Or Thriving

As I enter my 20's, I have never been so unsure about life well...in my whole life. I get so extremely frustrated because I just don't know what I want to do with my life, and I know I'm not the only 20ish year old who feels this way. I have already changed my major about five times and I'm still unsure if the major I am currently studying will be what I want to do forever.

The minute I finally feel like I know what I'm doing, a mental breakdown kicks in and I question my entire being. Why am I even going to school? Why am I studying this major? What do I want to do later in life? Who the heck am I gonna marry? What kind of dog will I get when I'm older? This is the kind of unrealistic spiral of thoughts that goes through my head once the breakdown begins.

I constantly feel like there is SOMETHING out there that I should be doing but I have no idea what it is. I have so many things I am passionate about and love to do but all too often I just feel like there is something more out there for me and I should be making the most of my existence. I mean, I have a friend who just jumped out of an airplane for her 80TH TIME and another friend of mine has a TED Talk (both in their 20's as well). But here I am, sitting on the couch binging on Netflix once again and procrastinating homework and pondering what the hell I'm doing with my life.

So today, casually, stressing about homework and life in general, I called my dad and decided to cry my eyes out for no reason specifically besides the fact that I feel extremely lost and confused because I just NEED to find my passion and something worth my time. It's so hard being in your 20's and not knowing what the future holds and sometimes you don't even quite know how to get there. And as expected, my dad sure put me back in my place.

It is 100% OKAY to feel this way and to have a billion and one mental breakdowns. You're young. You're in your 20's and you're meeting your best friends and going out at night and trying to do school as best as you can and you are doing great. You are doing the best that you can and that's all you can do. The rest will come to you. I have never wanted anything more than to travel and eat good food and meet great people. But if you work hard now, the rest will come later. Sometimes you just need to cry it out, and sometimes you get stuck in a slump, and maybe 90% of the time you aren't really sure what you're doing but that's okay. Life will work itself out as it should and you are most likely exactly where you should be doing exactly what you should be doing.


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