So you have no clue what you're doing.
That's okay, neither do I. Neither does my best friend. Or my mom. Or my English professor. Or the guy who poured me my coffee yesterday.
I honestly believe that none of us have a solid idea of what we are doing. We can make all the plans we want, and have everything laid out in the most minute detail, and then life goes and flips everything on us. That's the way it goes.
“But life doesn’t often spell things out for you or give you what you want exactly when you want it, otherwise it wouldn’t be called life, it would be called vending machine."
As the incredible Lauren Graham once wrote, life doesn't often work quite the way we expect it to. We make all these plans: detailed beach trip agendas, my life in the next five year plans, grocery store lists, pros and cons of buying that car. How often do those work though? It rains on your first day at the beach, you lost the life list and move to a new city (that wasn't planned), you come out of Target with $100 worth of junk when all you needed was milk, and that car you bought was definitely not worth the 15k you just dropped. You have no clue what you're doing. You have no clue why it's just not working out for you.
Why me? What did I do? What do I have to do to catch a break?
At this point, I've decided it's nothing any of us have done. It's just life, and we have no damn clue what we're doing. We spend years claiming we're figuring it out or on our way too, and then when we finally grasp it, we kick the bucket. Maybe that's the beauty of it though.
So you don't know what to major in? Okie dokie, take your seat by everyone else like that. So you think that maybe you chose the wrong career 20 years ago and it's time for something new? Alrighty, get ready to make that pro/con list that you will probably lose. Your sports team you coach still sucks no matter how hard you practice them? You can hang out with the coaches from my high school, they understand this struggle.
We all have these fleeting moment where we grasp exactly what we're doing and how we're going to do it. And then moments later the vending machine of life gives you a Snickers when you pressed E4, which was Bugles. You're back to square one. Whether you are 13 and just learning to talk to girls, or 57 and still trying to talk to girls but also decide on the best health insurance, there is a good chance you still have no idea what you are doing. Because when you figure it out, something else changes, but that's life. Sometimes you just have to take your Snickers and make the best of it.