I need you to know that I loved you, I planned a future with you, I would’ve spent my entire life with you.
But I need you to know that while I still love you, I no longer want any of that with you. I don’t want a future with you, nor do I want to spend the rest of my life with you OR wanting you.
I need you to know that I will probably always love you, but not as intensely or severely as I once did. I will always want the best for you. I still pray for you some nights. I pray that you find someone who is perfect for you in every way that I wasn’t, but even in ways that I was as well. I pray that your dreams come true, as cliché as that is to say. I want you to follow all your passions mercilessly and achieve every single one of them.
I need you to know that I have no hard feelings towards you. However, I also need you to know that I’m not longing after you. I’m not mad at you, however there are things I wish you would’ve done differently when it came to me and my feelings. But that’s in the past – along with us and all the plans we made.
I need you to know that you were the first person who I truly felt I would spend my entire life with. You will always have that first. However, all my lasts are meant for someone else.
I need you to know I’m happy.