Maybe I don't need love right now. Maybe I have been trying to find something that my heart isn't ready for yet. Maybe I don't need someone right now.

Maybe I still need to expand my horizons and experience new oceans while meeting new people who inspire me in ways I never have been before. Maybe I should grasp the chance to choose where I want to go and who I want to be without someone changing my perfect picture.

Maybe I still need to learn how to love myself; learn the type of love I want to receive from others. Do I want a traditional love? The type that is safe and steady. Or do I want wild love; the type that can't be tamed.

Maybe I still need to decide if my heart is ready for love; or if I just need to focus on repairing it from the damage that it has been caused in the past. Maybe I still need to learn more about the wants and needs of my heart.

Maybe I need to be my own person for right now. Hold my own hand, hug myself to sleep, learn to be my biggest fan.

Maybe I just need to be alone for right now because anyone who comes into my life will throw off the balance, and any more damage to my ship will only drown me further. Maybe I just need to sail alone for now; because no one knows where I belong yet.

Maybe God keeps pushing people away from me because he knows I'm not ready to share my life with someone else yet. Maybe he knows that I could never be loved to the fullest without completing loving myself first.

There are always going to be people in this world who never have problems finding one partner after another. Then there are the one's who grew up craving adventure and magic, and they are the one's who struggle to find other individuals to share this desire with. The type that do not know what type of lover they are looking for, and once they find love, do not know what to do with it.

Maybe all I need right now is to learn how to be truly happy with my life; to know that I could live the rest of my life in my own happiness and not have to depend on someone else to bring me that joy. Maybe I am only meant to find someone once I have all of this figured out and have learned the "ins and outs" of my heart. I know I can live with myself for the rest of life, I just need to work on how to make the most beautiful and successful future for myself right now.