I wasn’t always the person that I am today. In fact, I wasn’t anything like the person that I am today before. I was always perceived and viewed as the kid with anger issues, the one that was always alone, the kid that doesn’t belong. The Outcast. I had never cared for what any person could possibly say to me regardless of who they are. I didn’t have anyone that I could turn to to help with any of my problems that I faced or anything that bothered me. Nobody could get through and be able to help or really understand me.

All my life, I had never been happy or ever looked forward to anything. I had given anyone and everyone I came into contact with a bad attitude. I had discarded everyone else’s well being and values because I hadn't a care in the world about anything. I had no goals, or dreams I had wanted to live up to. I had no future for myself, not one that I could see at least. I was dark. I thought everything in life was meaningless. Nothing in my eyes had any personal value. For a while, I had just wanted everything to end.

But then I met Sera.

She saw and thought of me differently than how I saw myself. She was persistent on changing how I was to not only myself but others too. She made me think about the big picture in all scenarios. She helped me develop a new perspective of life. None of this came easily, but Sera had never gave up on me. She helped me deal with personal issues that ate away at me from the inside. I had someone I had a real connection with, making things easier for me. I became nicer to those around me, more considerate to others thoughts and feelings, and more caring. All of this had helped Sera and I form a bond nobody had ever saw coming.

At first, no one had thought twice about us being anything more than mere acquaintances. We had two mutual friends that had seemed to balance it out in the middle. We were polar opposites. She was so happy and loving and had always looked to the better side of all situations. I had never thought about the good of any situation, even if it wasn’t a bad. I always had a pessimistic attitude towards everything, even life itself. She has always known what was important to her in her life and had kept them close to her heart. I honestly did not give enough fucks to even have something that I could hold onto.

But that had all changed.

Sera and I had grown closer, becoming better friends. She was the first person that I had wanted to go and talk to everything about. Not once in the time of knowing her has she ever judged me about me being myself. And vice versa. There was no judgement between us, no awkwardness, no boundaries that our friendship has ever faced. To this day, it is still like this, except only much stronger now. To think of how long it would take two people to truly get to know each other and their life stories, you would think they knew each other since they were very young. But that isn’t the case. It wasn’t really until the winter of my sophomore year of highschool did we really start to become close.

There was always talk, and still is now, of how it seemed as if we were together or had a thing. Always running to her car at the end of school, forcing her to bring me home everyday just to see her did not help that matter. But it wasn’t the case at all. It was never like that with Sera. She was the first person that fully knew and understood me. We know everything about each other. She knows me so well, that she knows me better than I know myself. My every step, motion, even every word, she already knows it before it even happens. I know how to get through to her when she tries to deny everybody.

My friendship with Sera is hard to describe, because it is truly unique. There is also nothing else that I value as much as our friendship. I will always want and need her in my life. I love her with all my heart, because she’s more than just a good friend. Sera Nicole Papineau, she’s my sister.