My Resume is Non-Existent, and I Don't Own a Blazer

My Resume is Non-Existent, and I Don't Own a Blazer

"I don' t know what my future holds, but I know who holds my future."

Freshman year was one of the most fun and exciting years of my life. Yes, school was important; making good grades was definitely a priority. But at the same time, it was a seemingly "care-free" year. I'm now a sophomore, and although I'm not the "bright-eyed and bushy tailed" freshman that I was a year ago, I am still wanting to be the same, care-free student. However, college has a different agenda.

Last week, my friends were all freaking out about a career fair. Blazers on and resumes in hand, they embarked on a mission to find a future employer. They fixed their summer schedules, practiced "business" talk, and dressed for literal success. Meanwhile, I was sitting in my bed watching "The Office" and making Snapchat videos of myself with the deer filter.

And while I try to make it seem on the outside that I am content with being in this stage of life, I'm actually freaking out. Because while everyone else is being proactive about their futures, I'm not even sure what I want to do. Heck, I'm not even sure if I like my major. I don't know if I want to spend every day in an office or wearing a pant-suit. I don't know if I could enjoy a seemingly monotonous job. I don't know if I even want to have a job. But the world is constantly telling me that being successful means having a job and making lots of money. The world says that if you don't make six figures, drive a fancy SUV, and live in a two story, brick house with a cute front porch, you're basically a failure.

So yeah, you could say that I'm kind of freaking out in this stage of life I'm in. I basically feel like a failure. Why don't I want what everyone else wants? Why don't I own a blazer? Or a pant-suit? Or a pencil skirt? Why do I have no clue what I'm going to do with my life?

As I sit here, getting down on myself and feeling like something is so, so wrong with me, I'm overwhelmed with a feeling of peace: a feeling that I don't have to figure this out on my own. In fact, I don't even have to figure it out at all because it's not my plan to figure out. It's not up to me to decide where my life is headed, who I'm going to marry, what job I'm going to have, or where I'll be in five years. And while that's scary, it's extremely comforting.

Proverbs 3:5-6 says, "Trust in the Lord with all of your heart, and lean not on your own understanding. In all of your ways, acknowledge Him, and He will make your paths straight," and Jeremiah 29:11 says, "For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."

It's not up to me to plan my future. I have no authority to try to figure it out and make it happen. And while accepting that I don't have that control is terrifying, it's also an opportunity for me to take a deep breath. No, I don't own a blazer. No, my resume hasn't been updated since my senior year of high school. No, I may not be planning on going to a career fair any time soon. However, I do have someone who is taking care of all of it for me. Yeah, I have to put in at least some effort. But it's not MY plan we're talking about here, and that, my friends, is such a relief.

To all of my friends who are slowly figuring out what the Lord is planning for them: I'm envious of you, yet so, so pumped for you. You're killing that pencil skirt, and your resume is incredible. And to all of my friends who have no idea what their future holds: take a deep breath. He'll reveal His plan to you soon enough.

Will I purchase a pant-suit sometime soon? Who knows. But for now, I'm going to continue to live a life full of "The Office" and rest: resting in the fact that I have no control whatsoever.

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12 Bible Verses For Faith In Hard Times

Remind yourself that God is always with you.

Lately, I have felt lost at what God wants for my life. Ever since I've come back to UWG everything has been horrible. It seems that I can't catch a break. I'm trying my best to focus on school, work, and extracurricular activities. But it's hard when I'm having issues with my apartment/roommates and knowing my family back home is struggling and needs many prayers. All, I keep thinking is maybe Carrollton isn't where I belong anymore. I've asked God if He can guide me in the right direction. Below, I have found Bible verses that have helped get me through these rough, past couple of weeks.

1. Isaiah 43:2

"When you go through deep waters, I will be with you."

2. Psalm 37:5

"Commit your way to the Lord. Trust in Him, and He will act."

3. Romans 8:18

"The pain that you've been feeling, can't compare to the joy that's coming."

4. Proverbs 31:25

"She is clothed in strength, and dignity, and she laughs without fear of the future."

5. Joshua 1:9

"Be bold. Be brave. Be courageous."

6. Ecclesiastes 3:1

"There is a time for everything and a reason for every activity under the heavens."

7. Isaiah 41:10

"Don't be afraid, for I am with you. Don't be discouraged, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you. I will hold you up with my victorious right hand."

8. Isaiah 66:9

"I will not cause pain without allowing something new to be born, says the Lord."

9. Psalm 91:4

"He will cover you with His feathers, and under His wings, you will find refuge; His faithfulness will be your shield and rampart."

10. Psalm 62:1-2

"My soul finds rest in God alone, my salvation comes from Him, He alone is my rock and my salvation."

11. Philippians 4:13

"I can do everything through Christ who gives me strength."

12. Jeremiah 29:11

"For I know the plans I have for you, plans to prosper you and not harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."

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Young Adults, If You Do Not Pray Now Is The Time To Start

Prayer is not just for our grandparents.


Every Sunday night my parents would drag me to the prayer service. There was no kids church, we all had to sit in a pew with my parents and listen. I remember counting tiles on the roof, reading hymnals, doing anything to distract myself, except pray.

I didn't understand it then. What was the point of talking to God if He knew what you were thinking and doing all the time? I didn't understand how important it was not just to let God watch you like an all-seeing eye from Heaven, but to talk and have a personal relationship with him.

We all talk about prayer, it's the Christian thing to do. We pray for our food before every meal. We tell a friend or co-worker we will pray for them. When a friend posts on Facebook or social media about something bad happening, the comment section reads "praying." It's the automated response that everyone gives. If we actually sat down and prayed, think of the good we could do. I am nowhere near perfect, but I know that I can pray.

The prayer of a righteous person is powerful and effective. James 5:16

When I feel like the world is crashing down around me, and there is nothing else I do, this verse is the one that helps me remember that my conversations with God can make a difference. We are called on to pray for everyone. We are called to pray for each other without dispute. No anger, no hatred, just sharing a moment of lifting hands in prayer.

I urge, then first of all, that petitions, prayers, intercessions and thanksgiving be made for all people. 1 Timothy 2:1
Therefore, I want the men everywhere to pray, lifting up holy hands without anger or disputing. 1 Timothy 2:8

Prayer can bring people together. When I think back now to those Sunday nights I appreciate all the prayer that was offered up. I don't remember what they were for but weekly we would hear reports of what God had done through prayer. That is a powerful tool.

Prayer is not gender, race, age, or political party bias. It is not something that is out there for the world to see. It is a very personal choice, but it has the power to change the world. The loss of Reverend Billy Graham and so many others this past year brought me to a realization. Our generation needs to step up.

Young adults have the chance to make a huge difference. In an interview, Bishop Bill Hamon said that he believes young adults are going to be an army for God that is unstoppable and on fire. You can see it in all that we do. We are driven, we are not afraid, we are unstoppable. It is up to us to start making a difference in prayer.

Don't wait for the prayer warriors in your life to reach heaven before you start praying. The time is now because none of us are promised tomorrow.

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