I have odd-ended feelings for New Year's resolutions. They are great go get 'em ideas, but fail to withstand the inevitable reality that quickly sets in. On the night of New Years and for about a week after, they seem to stay in full force as people try to lose those 50 lbs. or save that money they just cannot seem to stop spending. With reality peeking in and the hype of the New Years celebration fading away, the intensity of the resolution for the year begins to diminish. This year I have decided on a resolution I want to stick through with the entire year in everything that I do. I hope everyone can take a little piece of my resolution as they enter into 2017.
My 2017 resolution is to do a little less human and a little more being.
I think it is very easy, especially as a college student, to float on through the days bopping around and trying to figure things out days by day. People want to stay in their safety zone in their job, relationships, school, etc., but lately I've really taken into account the fact as my time keeps passing so does the opportunity for me to live as much of it as I can, authentically and raw.
With my friends this year, I want to love them better. Friendships are something so special, full of laughter, pain, growth, vulnerability, and honesty. In 2017, I hope to do more selfless acts of kindness for my friends with my full heart involved. I hope to let those in my life know how grateful I am for them, how much they mean to me, and how much happiness they add to it. I plan to get to know their true selves and inner souls better for who they are and what makes them my friend, growing close friendships and cultivating new ones.
For my family, I want to call and be with them as often as I can and put my heart into my conversations with them. Being away from college, it is easy to become busy with your time away from home and easy to forget about calling your parents. They think about us every day and try to let us do our own adventure, but deep down itch to protect and love on us every day. I have realized with the older I become, the more I wish to cherish my family relationships from all corners. I want to know how they are truly doing and keep known their importance in my life.
Immersing myself in my academics has become important to me. While it is hard to have to stay in some nights while others may be out, I have learned being in college has taught me a lot about balancing social events and school. As many of us do, it is easy to devote time to fun and cram in school the night before a big paper is due or exam. I hope to steadily focus on my academics and education. I do not want to just procrastinate and cram my education; I want to truly learn all that I can, turning mirrors into windows. I want education to nurture not just my career, but my mind.
In general, I want to feel emotions harder. I do not want to be afraid to cry or be angry because those emotions are a piece of being a human and having emotions. If I feel something, I want to feel it with all of who I am. I do not want to try to convince my heart of one thing when I know deep down how I truly feel. I want to go with my gut, follow my heart, and consider my mind. I hope 2017 is the year of giving thanks to my experiences and those around me, rather than apologizing for those things that may not always go my way. It is funny how life always seems of having a way of working itself out. I want to inhale love and exhale kindness. The world is an endless adventure and as this next year is given, I want to experience it all.