Have you ever felt yourself dissolve/disappear?
Until nothing is left but an empty ache?
Like losing pieces you'd needed.
Because having nothing at all
is so much better than chaos.
You've been so desperate so long
for just a spark.
Just something to convince
you that there is a life worth living.
You've gone so long without it,
you don't even want it at all anymore.
The dull drone of daily life
is all you hear.
All you have.
And the world will always
tell you it is better to exist than not.
So you carry on.
and on and on and on and on and on