As 2018 has now begun, so does the reality of all the things that 2018 brings. This year I'll be turning twenty-one, whoo hoo! My suitemate also brought to my attention that it will be our last full year at UNH because we will be graduating in spring 2019.
Thus senior year beginning this year too. I also will start having to really think about where my future is going to take me. Reflecting on all the new beginnings that will start this year have really made me think.
Things are going to get harder. Competition in the job area is going to get fierce. If I want to go where I'm going, I'll need to step it up and be ready to show employers why I'm the one that they need. I'll have to start thinking about where I want to live once I graduate, and whether that will be in my home state, or if I will force myself to venture out and start from scratch.
This year, I'm going to let myself be a little selfish and really think about me and my happiness. I'm not going to let dumb boys who "may have potential" walk all over me anymore, and I'm not going to sacrifice what I want because I deserve to be happy, and look towards the future with someone who really wants to be there too at the end of this road.
I'm going to speak about whats on my mind, and I'm not going to keep it inside anymore. I'm going to push myself to work harder and to do the things I was put on this world to do.
I'm going to have fun and live life to the fullest too. I'm going to say yes to more opportunities should they present themselves. I'm not going to be so scared, and I'm going to let me freak flag fly because I'm a weirdo, and I shouldn't feel like I need to hide that anymore.
I'm also going to get back to doing the simple things in life that make me happy. I used to love drawing and writing stuff down in my little notebook. I'm going to try to get back to that. I used to sit outside and draw in my notebook whatever I was feeling, and write down words and questions about life. It was nice, and I'm going to let myself have that time again to get everything out.
I'm really going to look toward the future. I know they say, live in the present and be right here, here and now. I just think I'm going to try to look toward the future a bit more this year because before I know it, another year will pass and soon a new chapter will begin. I need to do what's best for me now and in the future.