Alone
Holding hands and smiling is foreign to me
You can catch me walking alone
With the million thoughts running through my head
But don’t forget to smile, they said
Alone
Honor’s Society but not Honor’s Student
Haven’t applied to Grad School
But I’ll do that on my own… alone
Anniversaries and going out on dates
Guess everyone is supposed to be happy except me…
Just keep smiling, play it safe
I see that you are happy with her yet you are texting me
Either love me or leave me you don’t want me or need me
Alone
Struggling to graduate Magna Cum Laude
One point away, help me God
This wasn’t my plan
But alone I stand
Marriage, engagement, children, I don’t understand
I’ll just be on my own, single and alone
In my solitude I have grown
Woman crush Wednesday, I am my own
Might as well get used to it, I’m forever alone
My chase for success has isolated me from ever forming that bond with someone
The time is ripe yet who am I dating, focus they said the right one will come
Thought I was finished now I have two more years of academia
To dedicate my life to help those in need
Who will dedicate their life to me?
Maybe the textbooks that have kept me company
Because not everyone can have the grades and the companion
But I have accepted this fact and the numbing sensation
That I will be alone and fearful on graduation
I hope my degree takes me far
I hope the unhappiness and the years of isolation chasing a hopeless dream are worth it
I hope when I am married I will say it was worth it
But in reality not everyone gets their happy ending.