Monsters don’t scare me.
I don’t scream.
Because monsters are outside,
And it’s within where my fears lie.
My shaking skin struggles to contain
The demons ravaging inside my brain.
They make me prefer physical pain;
The hurt others feel, I only feign
Because I am so damn detached
From this world where weapons can only attack
Pry apart, rip, tear, maim, or crack
But can never even scratch these shack-
Les that hold me to the ground.
Ties twist my tongue, tightly bound.
Even I am left completely astound
How those I hold dear can’t hear me drown
In my mind, thoughts poisoned to the core.
Skeleton, trapped in my skin, it’s only a drawer
That opens up spilling my fucked up memories upon the floor,
And when I ask for help, all people want is more
Because they want to see you bleed,
For your blood feeds their greed.
You want to get better, but their actions impede,
Lay seeds on your conscious that’ll only grow weeds,
And your morality dies; it’s taken the fall.
You question yourself, second guess, get mauled
By the creatures that aren’t outside your walls;
They whisper in your ears in a type of drawl
Telling you you’re worthless, nothing, alone.
You start to feel the scratches upon your bones,
Hear their voices and all they groan
Telling you the truths you’ve already known,
That the world will not be the death of you
For there are far worse worlds within that grew
More mischievous and malicious as they chewed,
Feasting on each insecurity, starting a coup
D’état and seizing control,
Tearing down each and every goal
Like a mole that sucks out your soul
From within and becoming whole,
You start to define yourself by these thoughts,
By the hurt and the pain and all that they brought,
Blending your personality like a blood clot
Until the picture you paint of yourself is a knot,
A scribble that refuses to straighten,
Halts all efforts for you to greaten.
Without any effort, you feel beaten.
Forget your God, hail Satan
Because the monsters outside aren’t scary.
It’s laughable, the evil that they try to be.
I’ll laugh them away, show them I’m crazy;Release the Beast, expose the devil in me.