Mom this one is for you, you've told me time and time again what you think love should be like and here's how I see it. I promise you I'm not someone who believes I'll never find love, but I just don't want something boring and too romantic.

I'm not going to lie to you guys, the men in my life are not the best examples for me when it comes to relationships but that's not the reason for why I am the way I am. I just want adventure. I don't want something boring. I'm young and want someone who can joke with me and keep things light. I've had the whole "meet the parents" stress before and let me tell you it's not worth it to be that serious with someone if you're not completely head over heels in love with them.

I do believe that love does exist but not like the movies. I'm sorry but I'm a realistic person and I don't believe in all the mushy feelings and the way the movies romanticizes relationships. No, you're probably not going to go to a coffee shop reading a romantic book and a tall, dark and handsome man probably isn't going to come to sit with you and say that's his favorite book too. If that does happen, odds are the man probably just saw you alone and really just wants to take you home.

It's crazy to write this and read things I wrote about exactly a year ago and see how dramatically my perception of men and relationships has changed but we grow and we learn more as the years go on. I've learned that most men at my age are still boys who are trying to figure out their sexuality and grow up and quite frankly I don't have the patience or the energy to deal with their immaturities at the moment. I don't want to be just another girl on their list or a girl that they can take home to mom and dad yet.

It took me a while to realize it but right now I just want to be alone and if a guy does present himself in my life well then I will friend zone him for the time being. I know that sounds terrible but sometimes you have to be selfish and think about what's best for you.

When a man does present himself in my life and I am personally ready to tackle a relationship then I want something real. I don't want all the mushy super sentimental stuff but I do want someone who I know cares about me and can show me that in his own way. I do think that love exists and that everybody will find someone but I'm over trying to force things when I know the time isn't right. When the time is right, it will happen but it's not worth it to rush things and force a relationship or something just for the sake of being in one.

I'm not a complete pessimist when it comes to love I swear, I'm just not naive because of all I've seen, been through and have seen others go through as well. One day I will probably be married with a career and children but until that day I'm OK with being alone and enjoying my youth. There you have it, mom that's what I think about love.