To the boy I never dated,
Let's be clear. I never intended on catching feelings, and I really did not want you to be the next boy I had a crush on. I thought you were alright, swiped right, and bam got feelings. Isn't it funny how Tinder makes things so easy?
We never dated, and to be honest that is for the best. However, there are sometimes I wish we had. I wish things had been different. Maybe if we met in a coffee shop or in class, maybe it would have been the big romance every girl dreams of. Maybe you would have written me these epic love letters that I would have saved in my drawer. If I had those love letters, I would one day, when I'm old and gray, show my granddaughter and tell her of the great love I had when I was just a little older than her.
This generation lacks the art of dating. No, you and I were never in a relationship yet were definitely more than friends, but it never fell into that gray area of friends with benefit. I will not deny that there were feelings, but never placed a label on what we were. I'm not upset about that though because I understand it was just the way things were between us. However, the letting go aspect of us I do not quite understand.
How can you crave someone so much, but let go so quickly? How could it feel so right, so natural, but turn into absolutely nothing? I'm not bitter, and I certainly do not hate you. On the other hand, I miss it and us. And I think a part of me will always miss it.
Maybe one day, we will meet again in a coffee shop, no Tinder or whatever trendy dating app involved. Maybe we will date, and have a label. Or maybe we won't. I don't know, but I don't want to lose the friend I gained.
Until another day,
The girl who misses you