First relationship ever.
I met him at my summer job. I wasn't looking for someone. I was single and fine. After collaborating on a project, he developed an interest in me, and I liked his company and the sense of security that he provided. These poems reflect what was going on in my mind during those months, from crazy coincidences to fears and denial, to his devotion. Yes, I'm in college and I have no previous love experience so it was nerve-wracking, though hopefully worth it.
I don't believe in omens,
I don't believe in signs
Though our paths have crossed and
Our fates seem to align
Am I in denial if "Coincidence!" I cry?
Blind to unseen strings?
Is chance a myth, a lie?
Against gravity these wings
Lift me. My world is shaken.
My planet's out of orbit
But I'm no longer breaking.
A Good Friend's Heart
You're the answer to my prayers,
The reason for my smile.
A heart once broken, near despair
Is fin'lly finding life worthwhile.
Can I turn away your care?
I can't leave it unrepaid!
I know what's fair after we've shared
Our stories and memories made.
You're a patron of my arts
And you listen to my voice.
We are two creative hearts.
Do I even have a choice
When you've been so good to me?
I don't know where to start.
My mind is running circles, see?
I can't break a good friend's heart!
Only yesterday, I thought true love couldn't be.
It's distant as a star, unreachable for me.
It's rarer than gold,
Unaffordable for most.
Why seek what I can't have? Unworthy of the best
I've seen others try and fail. I was never on a quest.
A star landed in my yard. You wished for a smile.
You gave me your sweat and pain, love all unbeguiled
By bribes of roses.
What I supposed is:
I've stumbled across gold. I found love, it's actual.
But what of this fear! Is it irrational?
If love is precious, why am I afraid?
If devotion is light, why not step from this shade?
If your affection is health why's my heart sick with worry?
Is my judgment blurry?
Why plead guilty when charity rules?
If our steps are wise, why do I feel like a fool?
If our love's not passion, oh,
Then my fear's irrational!