There is no easy way to say this: everything will be okay.
You don’t have to believe it nor do you have to accept it. You just have to hear it.
You may question how you can ever possibly be okay knowing that the one you loved is now your angel. All you want is for them to be there by your side like they always were and to hold you in their arms as you try to feel okay again.
But, that just isn't how life works. And, at this point, life is the only thing keeping you from your angel up above. You need to put their needs in front of your's now.
If they could see you now, they would probably make a remark about how childish or foolish it is to cry. And that’s part of what you love about them.
Then, you wonder to yourself how you can carry on without them.
Your world may be crumbling, and you might not be able to breathe. But, the sad reality is...it’s normal.
You see a picture, and the tears are uncontrollable.
You think about a memory, and you can’t help but feel broken.
You see people smile, and you can’t imagine why.
It’s difficult to understand at this point, but life continues to move forward--even if you do not. And with that, the people who care about you continue to be by your side. It's ok to take your time, though.
Tears will not help your broken heart. As much as you want to believe that they make you feel better, they don’t. Because your tears cannot measure how much your angel meant to you--only your heart can.
The heart not only provides you with the ability to live...but also to love. With this love, you can store your memories in a safe place where they will not be forgotten. And neither will your angel.
Dwelling on what should have been is painful. Not only for you but for your loved one as well. They would not want you to think about the “could haves” and “should haves.”
Instead the “remember when” thought should creep into your thoughts for the fact that those were memories shared together. Together you and your angel will always have those happy thoughts to bind you and to carry you through the hard times when they can no longer physically be there.
But take your time. I’m here when you’re ready.