I wanna love people without taking a break.
Without faltering, without questioning, without letting it be some on-again-off-again broken rollercoaster. I want to have that frantic, "I ADORE YOU" mode going 24/7. Even if I don't get to see the people I love every day, I want my love to be an everyday adventure. I want to be tail-wagging levels of excited because I love some pretty amazing people. I want to race around the room a billion times just because I got the chance to be with the people I love for what, 5 minutes? I want to let go of what bothers me, the grudges I have, the pains that might stand in the way of my love. I want to love without pausing to be angry, without pausing to be sad, without stopping to love someone else instead. I want to know that there is no wresting this love from my hands - paws, you get the analogy - or trying to talk me out of it. For the people I love that love me in return, I want to love them without ceasing.
I wanna love people through my mistakes.
When I fail, when I falter, when I fight, when I make a mistake, when anything happens that showcases pretty boldly the mess that I am, I don't want to panic. I want to face my people even with "chewed up your favorite pair of shoes" mistake energy looming around me. I want to come to them, staying and laying low and apologetic, not quick to argument or excuses. I don't want to hide myself inside of myself and push people away that I have hurt so that I can't hurt them anymore. I don't want to love like that. I want to be the first to approach people after my mistakes, the first to apologize, the first to do whatever I can to make things right. I want to be willing to wait if people need time. I want to be willing to talk if people want to hear. I want to be able to listen to anything they have to say. I want to be there for others even when I feel like a screw up. People deserve more than my hiding, and I can only hurt them more by staying hushed.
I wanna love people through their mistakes.
Because it doesn't matter what happens. Even if my favorite toy is thrown where I can't reach. Even if my water dish gets accidentally kicked and spilled. I want to love people even if they mess up. I want to love people through the mistakes. To err is human. To make mistakes is all of us. I want to love those I love even as I watch them stumble and help them through it all. I don't want to love through toxicity or love until it breaks me. I want to love those that love me fully and know when that love benefits me and helps me grow.
I wanna love people unconditionally.
As in no conditions. Zero. I want to love the people around me without needing anything in return. Without wanting something from them every moment. I want to love without fear of it breaking because I know it's tethered to exactly who they are, not what they do. I want to be excited to greet them every single time I see them no matter how long it's been since I've seen them last. I want to be unafraid to show them how much I care about them every single chance I am given. I don't know how many will come around; I want to make the most of what I have. I want to love people with everything I've got.