Relationships are never easy. There is always this misconception that couples that are "meant to be" or friends who vibe well never struggle or fight.
The term "compatibility" is subjective, and it can take on many definitions based on different perspectives. Even the most compatible pair has their fair share of rough times, too, when they just feel like eliminating the other party's existence.
That may be exaggerative, but it's true. Been there, done that.
Sometimes, love is not enough to make a relationship work. Other fundamental elements like trust, mutual respect and commitment are necessary too.
They are the most precarious characteristics in this world. Once broken or lost, it will be an uphill battle trying to rebuild them again.
Most of the time, it will be a waste of time. It is extremely difficult to convince yourself to get involved with him/her again. You just want minimal or zero contact. I mean, trying to trust someone who broke your heart is always going to be tough no matter how much you still love them.
Starting over is way easier said than done.
As cliché as it may sound, love is a double-edged sword. On one end, you can have all the happiness and feel like you're on top of the world. On the other end, your feelings might not be reciprocated (and then come all the negative and crappy emotions).
What's certain is that if you are going to be emotionally stingy, be prepared to receive the same behavior from your potential partner. In any relationship, the unwillingness to share emotions is a form of emotional torture to both parties.
People who tend to be emotionally generous and show affections to their partners easily have a harder time when the relationship ends. Why is this so?
When you are loving without caution, you expose all your vulnerabilities to him/her. You're allowing him/her to have access to your inner world. You're loving hard, which undeniably should be the best way to love anyone.
But it got to the extent where you're almost driving yourself insane. You're so used to facing disappointment, and your heart has been shattered so many times you already lost count. You stayed despite knowing that he/she, on the other hand, would never go that far for you. You knew how calculative he/she was with giving love. You fought against yourself.
Was this really worth it?
You're pushing yourself into a corner for someone who just can't be bothered. You're constantly seeking him/her for closure. At times, you're just turned away.
This lack of clarity about why the relationship ended incurs greater pain and distress.
Loving hard is how love should be. I don't deny that. However, we still have to have control over our emotions.
You have already given your all. You have done more than enough to prove your love for him/her. What you should understand is that a person who left you in emotional despair would not be there for you, even if you both managed to reconcile.
Continue to wear your heart on your sleeve, but take accountability of your emotions. Love can drive us nuts and make us do things out of character.
If someone truly loves you and cares, he/she will never make you feel desperate or crazy. You will never have to beg for the closure that should be already given. Always bear this in mind.