It's been so long. How are you?
I'm sorry we haven't talked in a while. Life got in the way and we just fell out of touch. But I miss you.
Sometimes when I look back at how close we were, I don't miss it. We fought with each other and we "forgot" to return borrowed clothes. We picked sides and gossiped, even though we knew it was wrong. We could be mean and selfish.
Other times, I do miss it. I miss passing notes and laughing, late-night phone calls, and coordinating outfits. I miss the good times, and even the bad ones, because I knew I could count on you.
I've lost touch with most of you since graduation — we're Facebook friends, but we aren't friends. I don't know who you're dating or how school is going until I see a new post. I don't remember your birthday until social media reminds me, and you don't remember mine.
There are so many things I wish we'd gotten to do together, go to concerts and celebrate birthdays. But I'm so thankful for the memories we do have. For five years, all of my experiences were made with you.
Even though we aren't in touch, I wish you the best. Some of us fought and lost the friendship we had, some of us just stopped texting back. But I hope you're happy.
I hope you're all doing the things you wanted to do — traveling the world, writing poetry, cooking for important people. I hope you're having as much fun as you thought you would after high school.
I hope you look back on that time now and remember it fondly. I know things weren't always easy. Some of us ate too much or not enough, and we all cried over boys more than we should've. Anxiety, depression, self-harm, panic attacks... for some of us, that was just day-to-day life, but we all tried to get through it.
I hope you know that, even though we don't talk anymore, I think about you sometimes and wonder if you're happy. I hope you think about me sometimes, but I understand if you don't.
Sometimes, the friends you make in high school aren't friends you have for life. But I'm glad I had you when I did.