Ever since I was a little girl, I noticed things about myself that were different from other people. I did not think much about it at the time, but as I got older, it became more clear to me that this was something I would have to deal with. OCD is something I must deal with.
If you know anything about OCD, it is a disorder that basically forces you to become a perfectionist. It sounds like a good thing, but that is only half of it.
OCD is different for every person that has it, but it all means the same thing. Some people have it worse than others, but everyone that has it knows the struggle that comes along with it.
In high school, it was very subtle and did not affect my life that much. I knew that I had it, but I honestly did not think it was as bad as some people brought it out to be.
It was little things like touching something a certain amount of times before being able to walk away from it. I started to learn how to deal with it when it was not as severe.
Nowadays, OCD has honestly taken over my life. College hit and my stress levels began to rise rapidly. It has become very noticeable in my everyday routine. I have always been a perfectionist, but now that has gone to an extent to where if some things are not in proper order I will not be able to go on with my day.
I must plan out my entire day days in advance and if I do not know what I am doing every second of every day then I will not be able to focus on anything else. And when I say I will not be able to focus, I truly do mean it.
My OCD has gotten to the point where it has limited me from being able to enjoy myself.
If you know someone with OCD, do not be so quick to think that it is not that bad because it is different for everyone.
Everyone is fighting their own battle. Be kind to one another.