i've never felt so free yet so heavy at the same time
your warmth radiates from you and i bask in it, enshrouded in your glow
and i float, the burdens of who i'm supposed to be lifted off my shoulders
because with you i just am
but afterwards, there is always a bitter taste in my mouth
as i recall the way your eyes glaze over when you look at me
your lips curled into a silly careless smile
so vulnerable and open
so hopelessly enamored
and i can't help but feel the clench of fear
for ever since i was hurt i became the one to hurt
so much so that it became a hobby
and the last thing i want is to see your eyes glisten with pain instead of love
for if you die i'll die too
because now i have become part of you