I have anxiety. I overthink in life and I had a fear of talking to people.
I wanted to be left alone for so long because I know how people behave. Some are violent, others are hateful, only a few are loving, kind and accepting.
My anxiety and my past tried to worm their way into the present and I let it for a minute. Then, I had to rethink my entire life. I know how hard it was for me to start my life over again, so why would I go back to what nearly killed me?
Back then, I let fear dictate my life. I never went to dances because I didn't have friends to go with. Nor did I ever have anyone to stand up for me when I needed it most. So, I stood for myself.
Whenever I feel like I'm about to explode, I take a deep breath and look at my surroundings. It could be gone in an instant if I stopped existing.
I did have a fear of talking to people but how did I overcome that? Everyone has a story, they have a unique journey in life and it's better to hear about them by talking to people. Even though there are dangerous people out there, I know there are also great people as well and it's better to give people the benefit of the doubt.
If your gut is telling you, "Don't talk to them," or "Run." Then you should go. But, if you want to talk to people in your career or want to make friends, then you should give it a chance.
Not everyone is your friend. Start slow. Start by being kind to everyone, smile and be polite. If you guys hit it off as friends then great and if not, that's ok. I like hearing people's stories and how they survived certain situations.
I don't have many friends but the friends I do have are some of the greatest, most generous and kindest people you'll ever meet. I'm not just saying that because they are my friends but it's true.
Over the weekend, I went out of my comfort zone to ask a girl I liked to hang out. Even though she had a bad day so we had to reschedule, it worked out for me because I asked. There wouldn't have been a rendezvous if I kept quiet.
The day I asked her, it took me an hour before I had the courage to speak. She's seen me quite a few times and I was afraid it might look like I was stalking, I can assure you I wasn't. I was just trying to get the courage.
Also, I work as a cashier, which is odd because the old me wouldn't enjoy it but I honestly do.
It wasn't as bad as I thought. I ended up getting her number and we began texting a bit. It's easier to keep quiet but what's the fun in that?
Taking a risk is more fun because you never know what the odds are.