Hey there.

To get things started, the first thing I want to say is I'm sorry. I know, all too well, the feelings that come from the ending of a relationship and they're incredibly difficult to have to endure. It's very trying that, not only do we lose a significant other through this process, we also lose a friend, a support system, and somebody to lean on. So much uncertainty and doubt derive from having someone leave your life and vice versa. Things become imbalanced and it's hard to find your footing again from that point on— I'm still stumbling.

I want you to know that having to bring our chapter to an end was undoubtedly one of the hardest things I've ever had to do in my entire life. This was the first time I'd ever initiated the closing moments of a relationship, and it felt dirty and wrong and villainous. All my life, I've sworn I'd always exert my energy and power for good. This time felt different as if I'd suddenly been placed into a position of power and completely abused it in the worst ways. Because not only was I hurting somebody else, I was hurting myself. How could that possibly be the right thing to do?

However, it was most definitely what I needed— what we needed. My life is constantly undergoing countless changes at this stage in the game, and I'm barely keeping up with them as it is. Goodness gracious, it feels like I am constantly moving, working, and seeking out more opportunities to add to my already overflowing to-do list. I find myself losing more and more free time with each passing day, and that's simply not fair. It's not fair to you when I cannot seem to find time to spend with you in between school and working three jobs and internships and participating in student groups for my majors and ensuring that I have a few seconds to breathe in between all that. And it wouldn't be fair to myself to place limits over my head, so as to assure I have some extra time. Sometimes I wish I weren't, but I'm in love with overbooking myself. Who knows if that's healthy but I know it's how I function best.

I want to thank you. You always were there to encourage my endeavors, to reassure me in opposition to my doubts and insecurities, and to offer me a window of solace amidst the tumultuous lifestyle we live as college students. I appreciate you so f•••ing much and I always have. I hope with all of my being that you're doing well. I hope you're continuing to kill it in all your classes, and I hope you're kicking ass in all aspects of life. I'm incredibly proud of everything you've accomplished thus far, and I can't wait to see what successes you'll accumulate over time. You're bound for some really great things.

- Love, Jon.

PS: Be sure to do nice things for you, okay?