Dear Girl with the Cracked Heart,
Your heart has been cracked, but not fully broken by a guy who probably was not around for long. You didn't know what this guy would mean to you when you first met him, but it was new and enticing so you went with it. At first, he was great. He told you all the things you wanted to hear and you believed him. No matter the relationship flaws, or his lies and bad habits; you wanted it to work, so you made excuses. You told yourself that you deserve this because of your sins, or that he was the only exception because you liked him so much. You told yourself that he would see that you are good, and that he would want to be good and change his ways. Or that you would change him for the better. But when he didn't change and his lies became unswerving, you rethought the whole relationship. You thought "Do I really deserve this?" and "What did I do to make him treat me this way?" But oh, sweet girl you didn't do a thing.
You fell for a guy who is not ready to love you the way you deserve to be loved. That doesn't mean that there is something wrong with you, or even him. Now your relationship is over, and you are wondering where you went wrong or what you could have done to make it better. However, the truth is, if you were having these thoughts and problems this early in a relationship; it was bound to fail. I know you liked him, and you wanted it to work so, so bad. I know you wanted to prove your family and friends wrong, and show them that he can be good to you, and that you can have a good relationship. He did this to you. He cracked your heart. And it hurts.
Please do not push this hurt away. Embrace it, and let your heart heal properly. Not everyone heals in the same way or in the same time frame. If you do not let your heart heal, this hurt will creep up on you for the rest of your life. It will most definitely creep up on you in your next relationship. So, eat ice cream and listen to Taylor Swift all you want if that's what helps. Go for a run, play with some puppies, or trash talk him to your friends. I promise it will make you feel better. But most importantly, realize that there is nothing wrong with you, and that you will find someone who will treat you a thousand times better. He will make you so glad that it did not work out with this guy who cracked your heart. It gets better, and one day when you see him or a post about him, you won't feel that deep pain anymore, and you will hope that he knows how good you are doing. Most likely, he will. Boy, is he missing out.
Sincerely,
A Girl Who's Been There