Dear ex-boyfriend,

These last few days have been so painful, thanks to you. It makes me so sad to know that someone who once made me so happy could cause me so much pain. The pieces of my heart that you broke. The worst part about everything is that you never offered an explanation. I constantly tried to keep in contact. I tried to keep our relationship going but all you gave me were hours and days between text messages and constant miserable looks when we were spending time with each other. Granted, I should have never forced our relationship; I should have ended it two months ago when I came home from camp and saw the difference in you.

When I noticed how you called me “babe” less, how you would ignore my texts and make sure that the conversations were days in between each other. I’m just so confused and am left with so many questions. Did you lose interest because you saw how happy you were when I was away? Did someone else come along and make you happier than me?

Every time I asked you this, you said no, that you would rather just break up with me than cheat on me. Isn’t that what you were doing? Forcing us not to work, not putting any effort so that the only option left for me was to leave the relationship. I want an explanation; I told you not to be afraid to hurt my feelings but you never told me and that is why you are always fresh in my thoughts.

I am going through some tough times right now and all I was asking for was your support. For you to be there for me; to talk to me and help see me through my problems, the usual boyfriend tasks, nothing too crazy. What was the problem with me? You never have a problem talking to people, it was just when it came to me. It is my first heartbreak, so everything reminds me of you. My support system is huge and I am so thankful for that.

Honestly, I just wish you would have explained what was going on. I understand you’re busy but so am I. We were in the same situation in the beginning of our relationship and everything worked out well. I knew that if you had wanted to try, we could’ve. I feel like I deserve some blame, elongating our relationship; knowing that neither of us truly felt the way we did in the beginning. I was hoping that our relationship could run on the fact that we both cared about each other as people, but you even lost interest in that.

I am traditionally a person that finds it difficult to develop attachments to others, especially when it comes to truly caring for someone like I did for you. Now, it will be even more difficult for me to trust the people I develop feelings for, thanks to you. From when we first started talking to each other to now, it would be almost a year. Thank you for that year and all the memories we made but I hope that you enjoyed the time while it lasted.

Before we stopped talking, all I got were small sentences that were meant with good intentions. You said you lost interest and I begged you to try; which is when you told me that you still thought I was cute, and I still don’t understand what that had to do with anything. You might think I’m cute but you obviously didn’t want to be with me.

Save your borderline rude phrases for your next girlfriend and make sure that the next time you start a relationship, you know what you’re doing. The way I feel right now is one that I don’t want anyone to experience. So do me and all your future girlfriends a favor and get over yourself. Young, heartbroken girls, let’s go join Marina and her lonely-hearts club.