Life was simpler in high school. Going to a small school and having such a small class we couldn’t imagine ourselves being inseparable right? I guess things change three years later and we don’t even talk anymore.
Contrary to popular and other people's beliefs I do blame myself for what happened, but it’s too late to turn back now. There are just some things I really wanted to say that I didn’t get to say in person.
I want to thank you all, each individually for having some part in shaping the woman that I am today and for being my best friends. I grew in my faith which got me through my first year of college. Thank you for the laughter giving to me in those tough times in defeat. Thank you for being the person whom I ran to at 3 a.m. with tears in my eyes.
The dance circles we created at every dance and prom along with the sleepovers and binge watching of movies and talks about boys. Those happy times are unforgettable along with those bad times as well.
When we went off to college we became so engulfed in our own worlds that we grew apart. Our frequent texts turned into “I’ll talk to you later”. Our “I’ll talk to you later” turned into “I’ll call you back tomorrow”. Those “I’ll call you back tomorrow” turned into silence. I can’t pinpoint the time I felt myself change but it happened and I don’t regret it.
Could things have ended differently? Yes. Could I had expressed my feelings a little more during that hard time during freshman year of college? Yes, but it felt like you didn’t care so it was easier for me to walk away.
There’s not a day that goes by where I don’t feel that regret of our friendship ending, and I wish I could change it but at the same time I can’t continue to live in the past. High school was high school. Life now during college and after can never compare. I am at a point in my own life where I feel the happiest and content.
I am very proud of the people that you’ve become today. It makes me happy to see each of you so successful and happy with what you’re doing. I just hope that you guys understand that the same goes for me. Though I’m not the one you come to talk to when times are hard or during your happy times, I do genuinely wish you all the best.