I know we haven't spoken in five or so months and that you don't want anything to do with me. I know that I probably hurt you when all you did was care about me.
Throughout the first semester, I talked to a few guys and none of them worked out. None of them treated me the way that I now know that I deserve to be treated. You showed me how I deserve to be treated, and you treated me the way every girl wants to be treated.
You were the best boyfriend I had.
You sent me good morning and goodnight texts, even if neither of us was having a good day. You opened doors for me. You came to see me in performances. You took me on actual dates, which I loved.
You not only told me how much you loved me, but you actually SHOWED it. I usually regret talking to or dating guys months afterward, but not once did I regret dating you. You loved me when I couldn't love myself. You were always there when I needed someone, and you urged me to get help when I needed it.
There are things I wish that I could change, like the way and why it ended. Sometimes, I wish that we could still be friends like we were going to be when we broke up, but I know that's not what is best for either of us. We both needed to move on because a friendship probably wouldn't work between us.
Dating you was the highlight of my senior year, and sometimes, I wish I could go back and relive those moments. Sometimes, I hate that I still miss you. I know you'll probably never see this article, but that's okay. Maybe that's for the best.
I don't want to be the girl who pops back into your life when you're finally doing better, but sometimes, I want to know how you're doing and how much has changed.
I don't know if I'll ever forget you or how you made me feel, but that's okay because you were the first guy who's ever shown me how I deserve to be treated. Thanks to you, I don't accept anything less than what I know I deserve. Thank you for teaching me that, and thank you for making me feel happy in a time where I was sad and confused.
I don't know what the future holds, but thank you for being a part of my past.