A Letter to My Ex, Thank You For Showing Me My Worth.
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A Letter to My Ex, Thank You For Showing Me My Worth.

Thank you for making me realize what I want, and what I deserve.

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A Letter to My Ex, Thank You For Showing Me My Worth.
Amanda Gabrielle

To My Ex,

Life was really hard after we ended. My whole life felt like it was shattering. You were my longest love, the person who I thought I would marry. I thought I would spend forever with you. That “forever”, turned into about two years. Two years of my life that I dedicated to loving you, loving you more than I loved myself. Those two years spent losing myself for a guy who didn’t do the same for me. Two years of my life that I could have spent figuring out who I am while you were doing that for yourself. I spent that time blaming myself for our fights, blaming myself for not being good enough for you, blaming myself for wanting to go out and wanting to have a life outside of dinner at home and foreplay in your bedroom. I blamed myself for being the reason you were unhappy, and I blamed myself for our unhappy relationship.

Being with you, I thought I didn’t deserve happiness. I thought I didn’t deserve being with someone who would do anything to make me happy because I thought the only happiness that mattered was yours. If I knew then what I know now, I would have done it differently. I would have loved myself more than loving to make you happy. I would have been more comfortable with myself to not feel so uncomfortable with you around other girls. If I knew then what I know now, I would have realized that my anxiety IS important and NOT something to just brush off. If I knew then what I know now, I would have known that you shouldn’t tell me I should be “grateful” for what you do for me, that it is something that is supposed to come naturally. If I knew then what I know now, I would have known that I matter too. A relationship is two people, not just one trying to make the other happy.

You put me in a constant battle of comfortability. I was constantly fighting with the want to be comfortable and the need to be happy. Even though it took me a while to realize what I needed, I want to thank you. I want to thank you for showing me what I need and deserve in a relationship. I want someone to take my happiness into consideration. I want someone to make me feel comfortable enough with myself. I want someone to love me endlessly and take care of me when I need it most. I want someone to want to do things for me, instead of feeling like it is a chore.

Thank you for setting me free into a world that I never knew existed. A world where I know how to love myself and know my worth. Thank you for showing me what I want in a relationship.

Sincerely,

The Girl You Let Go.

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