To my ex best friend:

From high school, to band trip and college visits, to random swimming days, you were the person I was usually with. We were two peas in a pod, but in due time, that all changed. They say not to room with your friends, but we didn’t listen to that. We said, “I’d rather live in a dorm with my best friend than a stranger. Even if it means some fighting,” maybe we should’ve listened to what people told us. I cant help but to wonder if things would’ve ended up differently had we not been roommates, if we would still be where we are today or if we would still be friends.

I honestly don’t really know where things actually started going downhill. I do know that once it started, there was no going back. It wasn’t just your fault, we both made mistakes. I’ve learned from mine, and I hope you have too. I hope you’re doing well. I hope your grades went up and you regained that love you had for Mississippi State. I hope you’re happy, with who you are as a person and what you’re doing.

I miss you.

I miss having a friend who was so much like me. I miss our long late night talks. I miss our throwback music sessions. I miss having someone to cry and laugh with, but I've learned that just because you miss someone it doesn’t mean you need them. Im not really sure that I miss you, I think I just miss the friendship. Every time I think of reasons to let you fully back into my life Im reminded of things I don’t miss at all. I don’t miss the lying, and I think that’s what ultimately what went wrong. I don’t miss being forced to be around someone you know I don't like. I don’t miss those times last semester when I really needed you, but you weren’t there.

I want to thank you. Thank you for all the fun times we had. Thank you for putting up with me, even when I had an attitude because I know how I can be. Another thing, I want to thank you for helping me get out there to find other friends. I want to thank for helping me realize what not to put up with.

I hope you know that I'm not mad anymore, and I hope you're not mad anymore, either. I wish the best for you in your future, because I know it’s a bright one. If you ever need anything, feel free to reach out because I'll still be here cheering you on from the sideline, instead of on the field with you.

- Your ex best friend