Dear Mom-mom,
It has been about a year and a half since you’ve been gone. April 18, 2015, to be exact. A day that still replays in my head over and over. Not a day goes by that I don't think about you. There’s so much I wish I could have told you and more memories I wish I could have shared. I wish you could be there when I graduate school. I wish you could be there the day I marry. I wish you could be there when I have children. I wish I could show you all my accomplishments in the future, but I know you are in a better place and always watching over me.
I remember even when I was very little, I would get asked who I looked up to or what I wanted to be when I was older and I always answered you. You were the kindest woman I ever knew. I never met someone with such a big heart and I can’t remember ever seeing you down. You were always such a happy and caring person and I hope to be half the woman you were. You have taught me so much over the years. I learned to love more, laugh more and to believe in myself more.
If I could have spent just a little more time with you, there’s so much I would have said. I still remember the day I got the news you were in the hospital. I felt so sick to my stomach. Those next few nights I could hardly sleep and keep my mind off of it. I knew it was happening, but boy, I was not ready for it. When it happened, I felt so low. I could hardly believe it. I don't think it even fully hit me until I saw you at the viewing/funeral. I remember when my sisters and I walked up to you all we could do was discuss how beautiful you looked. At that very moment, three petals fell. I felt like that was you telling us you were listening.
I think you are always dropping hints that you are with me. I’ll never forget when Lycoming had the psychics at our yearly carnival and I decided to speak to one. The first thing she brought up was you and all I could do was cry. I didn’t think you would even get brought up, nor did I think she would tell me that if I see a mermaid (whether it be a statue, a stuffed toy, or even a drawing) to pick it up because it symbolizes you. I was a bit confused, but just hearing your name and that you were with me was all I needed to hear. Ever since that day, all I see is mermaids, everywhere. It’s a great reminder that you never left my side.
I miss our times together. I miss your laughter. I miss your kindness. I miss your beauty. I miss you, Mom-mom. I’m glad I have a beautiful guardian angel to watch over me. Rest peacefully, Mom-mom. I love you. We will meet again someday.
Love always,
Your granddaughter