Letter to A Drug Addict & Absent Dad,
First let me say, I forgive you. No matter how much you hurt me or others, we as God’s people have to learn to forgive to forget and I am doing just that. Of course, I don’t understand why you made the decision that you did, but we all make decisions that we feel are right at the time and don’t think of the people that we may hurt in the process or consequences we may face on the way. I wish that you would have made a different decision and chose a different for yourself and for the people that love because the last thing your loved ones want is seeing you like this and doing this stuff.
As I grow up I have learned a lot from you and other people in my life. I am glad that I had other people in my life when you weren’t there for me and to help me through things in life like a dad is supposed to do for his daughter. You have taught me that I don’t want a husband like you and I don’t want my kids to have a dad like you either because I don’t want them to go through the same things that I went through with you. I want what is best for them and I know understand why mom did what she did and raised me on her own because she wanted what was best for me. You have also taught me that I don’t need a man in my life to get what I want or what I need in my life.
You coming in and out of my life only made me stronger; it broke me down, but I was able to pick myself back up and continue living my life for me. I gave to chance after chance, but you only made me look like a fool in front of everyone, but I did it because I thought deep down inside you had chanced and God helped you, but you only disappointed me every time. As time has gone by I have realized that you are NEVER going to stop doing what you are doing, but I have learned that I can’t let my guard down with you anymore because you will only take advantage of me. I have built a wall around my feelings because of you and I don’t let anyone in anymore because I get scared, but I know I will eventually get over that and learn to trust people again.
I want to thank you for the person you have made me today and the things you have showed me in life that I do and don’t want for my future family. I wish you nothing but the best and hope for your life that God can catch you before you get too wrapped up with the devil that you can’t come back and be the person you were before you got into all of this. As a daughter, I will always love you because you are my father.