First off, I am sorry and welcome to number three of "13 Reasons Why my Life Sucks."
This is going to make me sound like a horrible person, and to be honest I was. I broke up with you over text message because I was too ashamed to talk to you face to face. You treated me like a princess and I took all the trust we built and stomped it in the dirt.
This is going to be the hard truth to our entire relationship, and if you're reading this, I am a screwed up person and I am sorry.
We met through questionable friends I had at the time. It's horrible to say that me and this friend were friends since 8th grade. I lost my virginity to you after a rousing game of beer pong and I was entirely too intoxicated. My whole thought process was "I'm going to lose it eventually, might as well lose it now" and now I totally regret loosing it then. Not because it was with you, because you were also a virgin. We were two awkward 18 year olds who had way too much to drink and it happened. I regret it because I felt bad and didn't know how to react afterwards so I hastily agreed to date you. The "dating" only lasted a few weeks and we were awkward throughout the entire thing. You were my first boyfriend even though I told you I dated before.
Now time for the secret I've been keeping.
We broke up right after Colossal-Con, my first ever anime convention. June 6th, 2013, was the exact date. But we didn't break up because our relationship was rushed, or I felt like I didn't know you at all. The real reason it came to a end that day was because I cheated on you during that weekend. I had too much to drink, once again, and this really nice guy took advantage of me. He wasn't nearly as drunk as I was and I was pretty loaded. My judgement was off the wall and my memory is a little fuzzy from that night. But I remember how disgusted I felt the next morning when my friends told me I didn't come back to the hotel room until later that morning. I felt like a piece of shit and I didn't deserve you. I texted you and told you "I had too much going on and I didn't have time for a relationship" not waiting for a response, I blocked your number.
So, to the boy whose heart I broke. I'm sorry.