Welcome to letter number two, enjoy your stay.
Definition of a FuckBoy:
Fuck Boy:
Noun:
-a male with whom a person has sex, but there is no potential for a closer relationship; "friends with benefits".
-a male who is constantly seeking romance and/or sexual congress with women.
For some reason, I always fall for the same exact guy, a fuckboy, a boy who who will play with my emotions and drop them onto the dirt.
We all know the type. The guy to hit you up at midnight, when no one else is awake, to ask for nudes or to sext. But when you're not into him he immediately calls you prude or shy. That's the nice version, I've been called a bitch and a whore for not sending nudes to guys. But that's our society we live in, we live in the hook-up culture. We live in a society were hopeless romantics get called gay and girls with self-respect and morals are called prudes. Imagine the pressure it has on young ladies now who DON'T send pictures. I've always been one of those girls, the girls to give in and do what was asked. It was nothing too extreme on my end but when they wanted more and you say no, you're the whore.
But, I always end up having feelings of some type and eventually, yes, they go away. They don't always, and when you ask the dreaded question "what are we" you always end up feeling like the side-chick or the friends with benefits. It sucks to say this, but I'd rather get cat-called a thousand times than be called a whore by a fuckboy. But I end up liking them too and I always end up getting hurt.
How do I turn off feelings for someone? Uninstall them? Delete them from my hard-drive? Because I don't want them anymore; I don't want to feel like I'm caged behind these emotions. Please set me free.